O! the many complications of life.
i just realised that this is my last week with all my friends in nyj...aarghh!!! i can't bear to leave them. can't bear to have the thought of not having me, rosa, kim hong, weiyang, you rong, darlene and xiao qian going out together almost everyday after school...or just stay back in school so that we can walk out together. ah wellz.
skipped chem lecture today (they didn't do much anyway...just went through test paper and did one more qn) and spent the whole 1 hour 20 mins talking to kim hong:) *grInz* think she felt much happier after that:) *beaMz*
hmmmz. after school today, we went out to celebrate her b-day:D went to thomson plaza...then i bought a mini cake from Four Leaves for her...then we went to the food court to celebrate:D *grInz* urged weiyang to buy a rose for her...and benjamin went with him. *grInz* it's rather convenient to have the juke box with us as well:) took the opportunity to promote darren hayes as well:) haha:)
ah wellz. the 'we' include me, kim hong, weiyang, rosa, benjamin and cuiyun... hmmz. took the same bus as benjamin home...and on the way i received some news...which add to the complicity of a lot of stuff...ah wellz.
aww shucks. i dunno how to comfort guys. how?

-such a beautiful day, such a beautiful day,
and the sun is shining, and the women are dancing
...
and there's no need to despair-
though by his pronunciation, it sounded like 'dis pear' hahaha:)
yeah! we didn't go out to *chomp chomp* afterall...they went out and called me and told me they'll call me again once they change destination but in the end some people went home and thus i didn't go out. hahaha. what a long sentence:) got b-day greetings from kim hong and the bunch...including a very nonsensical benjamin singing a deliberately offtune happy b-day song. ah wellz:)
quite amusing when i wish weiyang happy birthday and he said 'same to you!' really cornified.
went to my sister's council investiture --- pierce's first student council investiture. hahaha:) nowhere as grand as nanyang's..but ah wellz:) reception food was nice. hahha. and four of her sc mates wished me happy birthday. guess who told them:) *beaMz*
then got b-day wishes from trace, rumie and weez (again!) hahaha:) thank you gals for remembering me! :D
yeah...enjoyed myself the entire day:) hehehe. relaxed at home, watched a bit of tv, finished asimov, changed clover's cage...basically got my energy back:) i feel the enthusiasm for school once more!:) hahaha:)
anyone want some freeky fries?

hahaha:)
8.27 right now and i'm still at home:) got a headache this morning...and while i was lying happily in my bed, preparing to doze off once more, a stomachache creeps up upon me, bringing its best friend, nausea, along with it. so that's why i'm still at home:) *beamz*
left my phone on the entire night 'cos i fell asleep last night without intending to..at 12+, my mum woke me up 'cos she said the phone sounded. *grInz*:):):) thankew weez! and geraldine! (though there's a high chance she won't see this. hahaha)
and qingz! hahaha. so nice of you to call me in the morning to sing a birthday song to me:) *grInz*
and my sister was so sweet! hahaha. 'cos today's she's going off to camp...so she placed this huge box on my chair with the presents inside. ah wellz:)
hmmz. and now i dunno if i should go to school...'cos nyj has a half day due to good results :D meeting my og mates later to go out to *chomp chomp* though:) wonder if the ct's going out...hahaha:)
yeah anyway, i've chosen vj first, then nj, then nyj... and found out that stephanie and corine (wonder if that's how u spell the name) are both going to vj as well. *grInz* there's a high possibility we'll end up in the same class. hopefully:):):)
yikes. stomachache again.

so interesting. a confusing dramatic scenario presented itself in front of me ever since the morning of 5th march.
to protect the pple concerned, the guy's name is changed to w, my friend from primary school's name is changed to k, and the other girl's name is changed to r.
yesterday, i found out that w like k, and is very sad 'cos k is leaving for nj. ah wellz. yesterday, k didn't come to school...so i called k and asked her if she knows that w likes her and that k says that she knows. then i asked her if she's going to give w a chance and she said she doesn't know...later in the afternoon, k came to school and i pushed her to see w and sat her beside him.
the thing is, a few days ago, i asked r who she likes...and i found out that she likes w too. so in fear of hurting her feelings, i told a semi-lie. gave her the name of a former crush instead. and now i have to bear the consequences of the semi-lie...to contain within myself all the emotions that i feel.
ah well. that's the update on my life. being busy with ccs these days as well. hehehe.

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yeah..
i've got lots and lots of things to say...but i dunno who reads this...hahaha:) ah wellz. who cares.
stupid jc choosing. dunno where to go...either vj (if i can get in...), nj or back to nyj...hehehe:) got 9 points. very awkward mark i feel. ah wellz. vj has a wonderful library!:) hahaha. fell in love with the library...but the environment there didn't seem too...warm. dunno. just a neutral feeling i guess. so strange:) perhaps 'cos i went at the wrong day...maybe when everything's in full swing, it's much better:)
nj...hahaha. nj was better 'cos guan came to fetch me and jits...and then we went to the library...and isobel met us. then we saw fungi:) and we crashed fungi's math tutorial...ah wellz. nice atmosphere i guess. kim hong says that the people seem like grey stones walking around:) *grInz*:) so funny:)
and nyj...seriously i've never felt so connected to people that i've known for only ...one or two months. ah wellz. and without any major crisis or anything yet as well. i trust them...but of course, i trust u all as wellz:) old friends... ah wellz:) choices must be made...and when choices are made, opportunity cost is incurred.
no loss, no gain.
oh yah! i forgot to add...nyjc's studying environment really is good. hahaha:) the study area rules! air-conned...and nice and empty:) perfect place for studying...or for sleeping. depends on wat u wanna do:) hahaha...and of course...there's the person i like...but who prob doesn't reciprocate the feelings.
hahaha. so funny. sizhen's trying to be my psychologist now...haha. primary school classmate. she's very adorable. lol:)

for a moment there, i nearly forgot my password. hmm.
i dunno wat to say. i didn't get as well as many other pple...but sucks. who cares. doesn't bother me anymore...especially after i heard my og mates' results...wah. nonsense. felt so sad i wanted to cry. not 'cos of my results...'cos of them.
glad to hear that my ct mates obtained good results. hehehe:) most of them are staying, apparently...
i...dun noe about myself...been pushing the qn away.
boggling over it today though.

*grInz*
it's amazing how things can go so fast...just yesterday i went for the ccs rehearsal...then saw hui chin (whom i first met on irc a few weeks back:) and found that he's extremely goodlooking:) hahaa. really nice guy as well...good personality:) j2. taking double maths. scary.
then today...only this morning, i found out that my old friend (not saying the name for fear of recognition..hahaa:) was looking around for a judo board. hahaha. then i said 'why're u looking for a judo board? judo got quite nice looking guys:)' and then she seemed surprised and asked 'how did you know?' then i said ' oh...i know this cute guy from judo. hahaha.' then she asked 'what's name?' and i told her 'ehz, hui chin...'. then she seemed rather shocked and said 'ey...how did you know him?' hahaha. so funny:)
she got 10 idols and only one crush. guess who the crush is.
then went around today helping her find info (seems like an eternity ago since she told me she likes him ...hmz) hahaha. now i know his primary and secondary school, his L1R5, that he's one of the only four pple who went to a jc in his sec school, his home and handphone number...blah. hahaha. he's not a bad person ... yeahyeah..good character. ah wellz. oh yah...apparently he's very good at chess too. and his acting's not bad. hahaha:) he's got charisma.
but i still stick to my crush. *grInz* when u like someone, there's no change to it. hahaha:)
yeah anyway...took pictures today:).

hahaha. my last post went travelling into internet space...hopefully it'll come back sooner or later. ah wellz:)
yesterday was a particularly hectic day:) went to buy paint and thinner for the ccs promotion team in the morning...then went for ccs meeting with some lin lao shi person who's supposed to be in charge of us...as well as the costumes and makeup crew.
then went home...rested for a while and went to cine to meet the rest:) saw weiyang first...he was lining up for the tickets...then wei yang told me that he told kim hong to look for me...so i went to look for kim hong:) *grInz* cine was...as busy as ever.
then you rong came...and rosa came...and yah. we went into the theatre. hahaha. kim hong didn't want to watch the movie.. but weiyang bought 5 tickets anyway...and we shared in treating her:) *beamz*
ehz. yes. we watched final destination 2. hahahaa. nc-16. at first, i thought it was nc-16 only 'cos there's a lot of expletives in the movie...but it turns out that it was nc-16 'cos of ehz...the rather obscene ways the people die as well. hahaha. i sat between rosa and weiyang, kim hong sat on the left of rosa and you rong sat on the right of weiyang...throughout the movie, rosa was helping to cover kim hong's eyes and comforting her and everything...ah wellz:)
after not watching any horror movies or thrillers for so long, i felt a tad frightened at the start...but ah wellz. thought i wouldn't be able to stomach all of it...but turns out that...all former practice came back. hahaha:):):)
first person got his eye impaled by the ladder, second person got completely flattened by a huge piece of glass, third person's head..ehz. wellz. got seperated from her body...hehehe. forth person got completely cut up into many pieces by the wired fence...so it's like...the intestines fell out. quite funny. fifth person's head got a broken wooden fence piercing through to the forehead...'cos her body got pushed back by the safety device meant to protect pple from breaking their necks when the car crashes. sixth person got burnt. totally charred.
something like that...go watch the movie. hahahaa.
then we went to marina bay to eat...never went there before...it's like buffet...$12 per person. ah wellz. actually i'm supposed to have my ct outing there...supposed to meet them there after watching the movie...but ah wellz..it got a bit late. so i ate with the four of them instead:) had fun:)
i reached tp interchange at 12 am+....hehehe. it was a nice and fun day:)
as for today...had a meeting with jingchen, de rong and qinglan at bishan...about the lighting. ah wellz:)

i'm sleeeeeepppy...and i haven't finished studying econs.
and i haven't done any maths for a long time. so going to die.
and i'm not in the mood for going to school and study...i feel like staying at home and sleeping. to recover first before i go to school:) hehehe.
do you know fat-soluble vitamins are hydrophobic? i didn't...until today, that is:)
went to school at 8.55am...hahaha. 'cos i felt horrendously sick in the wee hours of the morning, then slept a bit more...then felt a bit better...and since i have javin's present, the flute to return and the task of discussing about lighting for ccs...i had to go to school. so sad right? yah. i think it's very sad. hahaha:)
food didn't seem too appetizing today either...ah wellz.
one good thing though:) i finally got weiyang to take my autograph book home to write. hahaha. he was the only closer og mate who wouldn't help me write. i had you rong helping me to persuade him this afternoon:) hah. nice angel:)
oh yah. forgot to mention. i walked around the whole day today with my ears feeling covered...so every sound was kinda soft and muffled. very interesting:) think it's the effect of the medicine making me feel groggy. can't remember much of what happened:) just that ccs is very nice...bball and ccs seniors are very nice...seeing my og mates make me happy...and my ct feels a lot more like a whole these days as well:)
bad thing is i think i just found out my inequalities hw is still with me. uh-oh.

hmmz. i signed up for it. but i don't know if my mum will allow me to go. ah wellz:) we shall see.
i now have a bad sore throat, a very bad cold, slight fever and a not-so-bad cough. hahaha. basically i've been exhaling hot breath...past this sore region in my throat. it feels horrid. hehehe:)
oooh. thanks weez for the vj collar pin:) *grInz* their design nicer than nyj's...ah wellz.
i wish i'll be well again. it's not very friendly of my body to be sick so many times in these two months.

o level results coming out on the 27th feb btw. i think. that's what they said anyway.
i miss the days of sitting down at coffee bean, sip coffee and talk. i miss gelato too. lemon ice cream!
can we have find some day to sip coffee and talk again?:)
oh yah. and i'm signing up for the blood donation thingie...if i can find someone to go with me:)

chem test wasn't too bad...it wasn't too good either. not enough time. we only had one hour...so strange. apparently, no one finished the paper. hahahaa:) the last qn..understood perfectly what it's talking about...just didn't understand the qn. find the concentration of A in respect to B. then, find the concentration of B in respect to A.
???
took early leave today...reached home at 1pm. hahaha. had a sore throat, a very bad cough and felt nauseatic. slept for 6 hours:) i feel much better now:) *grInz*

oooh. it's been a grand four days since i've updated...hehehe:)
hmmz.
nothing much happened...went to rosa's house on wednesday:) met yourong first at the mrt station, then we went to 'cheers' with the intention of buying snacks to rosa's house...saw cynthia (sister's friend)...hahaha. she just came from toa payoh too:) how funny:) then came out of 'cheers' and saw rosa...hah. then we walked to the bus-stop and kim hong got off the bus when we reached there. then we waited for the bus that weiyang's on and went on:) i found it quite funny. every meeting went on rather ...smoothly. like what u'll expect in a story or something:)
had my first time experience drinking tea using a real tea set...hahaa...hmmz. we played daidee, 21-points (?)...i broke a glass, rosa broke another glass...then we talked a bit...saw rosa's prom dress (she sewed the whole thing herself! looked really pro..hahaha..she refused to wear it for me and kh to see though)..then we went downstairs...wanted to play bball, but the court was...rather full. wanted to walk to another bball court, but saw somebody with a bball walked towards our direction from that bball court...so they figured that that court must be rather full too. went back to the original court, practiced handling with the ball near the court... like perhaps throwing the ball over the beam of the covered walkway. hahaha...that part was quite funny:) then we went to the court and shot. it wasn't nice having to share the court with so many pple. ah wellz. then we went out to eat. blahblah. if i continue narrating like this, u all would fall asleep:) nice memories should be kept within me:) no need to say too much:) hahaha:)
thurs...nothing much happened either. (ooooh. daniel chan's song! bi wo xin fu. i think it's daniel chan's... used to have that song on my comp:) just that rosa wanted very much to kill colin. hahaha:) and bball training was... let's just say it's been the most strenuous ever since the starting of the year. ended at 7.45...then we got our v-day pressie. that came as a nice surprise:)
ah nonsense:) i have a chem test tomorrow! disastrous. i feel no passion for chem. weiyang's very good in chem. not fair. hahaha. kidding:)

oh crappified nonsense...i really have nothing to type these days:) *grInz*:):):)
wanted to skip chem lecture on monday 'cos i was feeling really tired and i haven't finished my chem tutorial..then didn't skip in the end. ah wellz. didn't go for basketball though:) senior was very nice about it:) she told me to go home and rest well *heh* luckily i didn't...considering the 'warm-up' (more of a heating up) that they had on monday ...which consisted of two times up and down the 14-storey flat being incorporated into three times around the estate, i don't think i would have been able to take it with my 2 hours of sleep.
haha. i wonder if our school's touch rugby team is really going to be playing against hcjc's...qingz! i'll support u!:):):)
hmmz. yesterday. we played frisby again!:) *grInz* i don't think i've explained the frisby thingie...'cos it's after cross country, then they're concentrating more on games and a bit of napfa stuff...so it's like, every class will actually take up a sport, we'll have peer 'teacher's, and the 'teachers' will then teach us everything about the game, and in time, train us up. at the end of it all, we'll have a competition against another class with the same game. we took up frisby:) oh. hope i spelt it correctly.
yeah..so frisby..is of course fun. paired up with eugene for the running cum throwing frisby to each other thingie. then i fell.
and what's so significant about me falling? 'cos just in the morning i was just telling the cedar pple (was sitting with them that particualar morning 'cos rosa they all went to put their bags in the LT) that i seem to be the only one who hasn't falled yet. hahaha:) ah wellz. it's a whole chain of falling incidents...
i still don't feel like i'm expressing who i really am in school...okay, maybe not in school...just when i'm with the ct. so strange.
hohohoho. i got very nice news from ajc yesterday too. hohoho:)

*grInz*
it sure was nice to see all of u again:) though there doesn't seem to be much change. ah wellz:)
miss lee's so nice! multiple pools and everything else...felt like i was on a vacation or something:)
summerhill indeed.
it was quite depressing to tell my senior that 'i'm quitting band'...ah wellz. the idea of quitting something is depressing on its own. blahblah.
i'm getting less and less articulate day by day. ah wellz:) i haven't gotten out of the 'i'm going to see 4/13 and 4/14 tomorrow' mood:):):)

ooooooh. i look forward to seeing all of you tomorrow:) *grInz*

hmmmz. forgot to mention:)
yengyong's my downloading agent (for songs:) *grInz* very very nice of her:) and weez's nice to send me a song too:) if anyone of u would like to contribute to poor xinying's music jukebox in my musicless computer, u're welcome to:):):)
and if anyone has baroque music cd...u're welcome to lend it to me too:) hehehe:)

hahaha. guess what? li ling was chiew's classmate. how fun:)
oh. and i broke a pipette today...i put it on the table, and while i was washing the burette, the pipette happily rolled over to the side and did a suicidal jump:) *grInz*:) i didn't even touch it. ah wellz. maybe the table was sloping to the side:) *haha* like humpty dumpty...all the teachers and students, couldn't put pipetty pipette together again. ah wellz:)
maths lecturer teaching APGP is really corny. he's so lame! aargh. and we copied like crazy...in comparison with the nice and relaxing line of binomial lecture going on concurrently...it's rather torturous.
everything's going rather nicely these days:):):) class, cca...except that i haven't handed in my tutorial B2 and B3...ah wellz. but neither had a lot of the ct pple (i hope...hahaha)...so i guess i'm 'safe' for the time being:):):) until monday anywayz.

oh. the other very zai female canoeist is called peiling...not huiling.
oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah. i forgot to mention. i saw my kindergarten school friend in nyjc:) or rather she saw me first...ah wellz:) her name's called vicki:) *grInz*
today was a NICE day:) 'cos today only got 3 lectures and 1 tutorial...and that 1 tutorial was cancelled 'cos mr tan says we've finished everything:) hahahaa:) so we went to jie yu's house to play mahjong. *grInz*:) lady luck was with me for the first few games...then she left me. so sad.
then basketball today was...a bit empty. only had the four of us at first...me, li ling, geraldine and li shi (i think)... then at 5.30pm... rosa, kim hong and jia ying came by:) *grInz* really tiring today! it was a mere 4 rounds today...but after yesterday's cross country. my calf muscles feel...not very well now. hahaha. pain pain pain.
miss tang (j1 coach) decided to gruel us further by getting us to train with the medicine balls right after we ran. blah. ah wellz. but miss tang's a very nice coach:) *grInz* all the bball coaches are nice! hahahaa.
yeah...anywayz, i've mentioned yesterday that bbgt got the gold trophy for crosscountry cca for girls:) 2nd year! hahaa. and we took a picture together:) with the trophy and medals and what nonsense.
first time i actually got it into my brain that yeah, i'm really in bball now. hehe:)
oooh. i forgot to mention. bball has its advantages...:) when we have training, the guys also have training. and eugene, my ct rep, is in bball:) *grInz* so whenever we do the ball handling stuff, since we're not supposed to look at the ball, we look over to the guys instead. hehehee.

*grInz*
anderson guys are very gentlemenly...ernest and his friends are anywayz...
apparently, they send all the girls home if it's after 10. hahaha:) personally. to their homes. hahaha:)
when we told ernest we wanna applaud him, he said 'that's what everyone does what'... haha. ah wellz:)
yeah anywayz, we had cross country today:) and our first set of maths notes! hahahaha:) nvm. cross country was fun:) went for competitive run...actually my whole ct went for competitive run:)
yeah anywayz... cross country's route seems surprisingly short... thought it was rather long from my memories. ah wellz:) i didn't get into the top 100...but i'm between 100-150. hahaha:) competed with wai wai in the last section...'cos she pushed at me in the last part...then we decided to see who'll reach the finishing line first... then came in a bit before her. ah wellz:)
i'm very happy:):):) ohoh. it's 500 + pple running...not 700+...'cos there's a fun run section too.
yeah! and basketball rules! 9 of our basketball seniors came in as top 20. hahaha:) so cool!:):):)
oooh. some guy only took 17 mins + to run 4.8km... blah him.
then went to eat with colin, rosa, weiyang and kimhong:) we ended up in heartland mall after changing the bus for... 3 times. *boggles* ah wellz:) hohoho. saw the pota cheftain on one of the buses. hahahaha:)
ooooh. before i continue. i must say... my OGLs are ze best! one is track and field's captain...the other is in canoeing...according to my ct mate... 'she damn zai lorz...she and one of the other girl called huiling (?)'...hahaha.
-one of the things that make you hot-
*lol*. and we finished the inspiring goal setting seminar today.. it's the FIRST ever goal seminar that didn't bore me AT ALL. really cool seminar...though now i feel a bit ..ehz. nvm. some 17 year old guy's making dunno how many millions per year...and has a CAR. a CAR. like those kind of really cool cars. blah him too.