i'm suffering from a lack of sleep. i have a pounding headache that can't even be reduced by two panadols. panadols these days...aiyoh.
cross country tomorrow:)
ah wellz. shall update sooner or later. hahaha...
-everybody needs to know that
the best things in life are free
now that i've discovered what you mean to me-
oh i realised that i can never remember names and places and what nonsense...i can remember on which page, which position the articles was like..but can't remember the names of the people inside or something. ah wellz:)

i dunno what to blog about:)
*grInz*
so groggy now...slept at 4.40am last night...ehz. morning:) woke up at 10.45am. then went to sleep again at 1pm..and woke up again at 3.30pm. read through the chem project report...then came online. ah wellz:)
played daidee with weiyang, rosa and yengyong at about 2++ yesterday...hahaha. first game without any glitches:) very nice very nice...until yy's game got prob. (dun worrie, it always happen to someone) poor weiyang...he was about to win. ah wellz:)

*grInzgrInz* my body system's scrrreeeeewwwweeddd up. i sleep at 3am and wake up at 8.45am, then go back to sleep and wake up (again) at 11.45am...hohohoho:) i love this life. hahaha:) nah:)
hohoho.
there's another gepper in nyjc. hohoho:) i'm going to hunt for the person and say hi:) *grInz*:)
didn't see too many ri pple though...only noe two pple - alex and yong hong:)
and apparently ernie knows another ri person...ah wellz.
been watching tv shows after tv shows after tv shows. major slack alert:) *beamz*

it's 2.08am...*yawn* i feel sleepy. hehehe:)
-no mountains too high, for u to climb-
happy chinese new year!!!:)

*grInz*
cny bazaar today was quite fun...hahaha. getting everyone to buy jelly:) at first i thought we'll incur a loss...in the end we finished selling everything:) *beamz* made profits of only $30-40 though...weiyang's class made a profit of $60++ dollars. blah them. haha:)oooh. i just remembered. their class doesn't do econs. so they won't be fighting with us for the prices. good good:):):)
after the bazaar, i went to junction 8 with rosa, kim hong, alex and yong hong. hah. then we didn't know what to do...and just kept walking to the highest level...then we went to the arcade:) didn't play any games though...alex was about to start when yong hong said that he'll go back to ri for a while...then i saw that it was time to go to heeren...and i went off with him...yeah so didn't play any games:)
then his friends called him and said that he's coming to j8...so yong hong decided to walk me to the mrt station and then wait for his friend there:) yeah...then went to heeren. and found only sze there. hohoho. and everyone else came late. u all deprived me of the chance to play games. sighz.
yeah...but they were nice later...'cos i was kinda broke...hahahaa:) nvmnvmnvm:) i like the 'be-nice-to-xinying' day:)
oooh. i forgot to mention. there's a guy called benjamin in the same class as rosa and yonghong and everyone else...and he lives very near me. the funny thing is, i've never saw him before! he takes the same bus as me to school and back from school everyday. hahaha:) so strange:)

heh. nyj's ballroom dance song:)
Wind Nocturne
(The Boat Song)
from the anime 'lunar silver star story'

Wishing on a dream that seems far off
Hoping it will come today.

Into the starlit night,
Foolish dreamers turn their gaze,
Waiting on a shooting star.

But,
What if that star is not to come?
Will their dreams fade to nothing?
When the horizon darkens most,
We all need to believe there is hope.

Is an angel watching closely over me?
Can there be a guiding light I've yet to see?
I know my heart should guide me, but,
There's a hole within my soul.

What will fill this emptiness inside of me?
Am I to be satisfied without knowing?

I wish, then, for a chance to see,
Now all I need, (desperately)

Is my star to come . . .

oooh. wonderful. can come in again:)
i feel so sleeeeeeeppppyyy.

got tons and tons of deja vu today though. actually i think i dreamt them all out before...tons and tons of them.

after yesterday's -negative- day...i told myself to have a positive outlook to today instead:) heh...
so i did...though the day was still not as happy as i would have liked it to be, it was much better than yesterday:) *grInz*
and my stamina dropped. and dropped. and dropped. i could only run continuously for 4 and a half rounds today. nvmnvmnvm.
and i've decided that crushes are OUT for me. so yeah. no crushes from now on.
at this moment...i'm just living day by day. not too good, not too bad, just that i feel detached once more.

-live believing, dreams are for weaving, wonders are waiting to start,
live your story, faith, hope and glory, hold to the truth in your heart-

ah wellz:) yesterday's 'study session (hohohoho)' was very nice...all the exchanging of dance moves, songs and whatever nonsense...then the playing of asshole daidee (hahaha) and bridge (woohoo!) and everything else:)
and i miss you all terribly now! went home and kept having the impression that i'll see you all today...that we're still the class we used to be (or classes:) nygep '99 rocks manZ!
today wasn't very nice...dunno why. but i feel as if however hard i try, i'll never be accepted or something like that. so i kept quiet to myself all day long...and i forgot to do chem tutorial 2...though mrs tan was nice enough to not say anything... and i had to get stuck in the same group as jie yu for the group for setting of current affairs question...when just the day before he apologized for sorta ignoring me on saturday 'cos he has nothing to talk to me about. so yeah.didn't talk. didn't talk during chem, didn't talk during bio, didn't talk during econs lecture, had a bit of fun with og during chem lecture...where i started passing around the 'talking paper'...hahaha...but my ct was sitting behind me and kept teasing may or something.
okay. may is supposedly the girl that jie yu likes. so i was sitting down there, listening to everything they say. ah wellz.
then basketball...shooting so terrible today...okay maybe not so terrible... but my playing was so lousy today... got a tad affected 'cos of marcus and jie yu down there watching. and because of the lack of sleep..then me, candy and liling had to run four runs around the estate...and i stopped at the 3 and a half round to walk a bit...just a bit...but nevertheless i walked. manz. so lousy of me.
so today i felt rather shi1 bai4. being with my og cheered me up a lot though:) 'cos i feel that my og people never judge me..and everything...and that i have found true friends in them:) weiyang, you rong, colin, kim hong, rosa, darlene and xiao qian:) ernie is on and off, on and off...
not that my ct people are not good, they're surprisingly nice:) but...dunno. could be that we haven't had any experiences yet. ah wellz. and i still miss nygep '99. *sniff*

oh yeah. wellz. collecting old newspapers tomorrow. and doing chem project. sighz. i do wish we dun have so many projects.

ooooh.
forgot to mention...we saw a rainbow yesterday:) *beamz*
ah. today. was. funny.
during the ct's chinese period, me, liling, jessie, davina, calvin and marcus went to the canteen...then somehow or another, i think it was jessie, someone asked marcus who jie yu likes. *grInz* and when he won't tell us, li ling and jessie started to poke his sides. ah wellz. turns out that marcus' extremely ticklish. hahaa. and they won't let him go...'cos both of them were sitting next to him...and sandwiched him...hohoho.
why did we 'torture' marcus? 'cos he was ze ONLY person who knew who jie yu likes. why are we so kaypo? 'cos we were bored. ah wellz.
ooh. and during gp today, when the families are all supposed to discuss about their gp project and blah and blah for 1 hour +++ the bone family (my family:) consisting of me, michelle, sufian and eugene, were discussing about other various stuff...like relationships. hehehe:)
ehz. i'm the mother, michelle's the father, sufian's the son and eugene's the daughter. *grInz* the daughter's name is T-bone. can't remember the son's...

*grInz*
chris chan is in linda's OG. hahaha. i told her to ask him if he missed yy. *ducks blow from yengyong*
hmz. nothing much to say. very sleepy. cny proposal got rejected 'cos budget was too high. ah wellz. very sleepy.

no band today...or rather, band today's only for experience pple:) ah wellz. so i went to chinese society to see how the meetings are like...hehee. quite fun.
oh. i broke something in my thumb. dunno what it is...except that it's nicely swollen and i can't move it much. how am i going to train tomorrow with an injured thumb? so sad. oh wellz. borrowed the flute home again...'cos the band seniors said that i can...anyway, the flute is officially 'mine'. ah wellz.
stupid liyu fabricated a story about how i like jie yu and everything else. now i don't know what to say to him on msn. ah wellz. nvm. stupid nonsense. the whole ct's teasing me about it. first the zhibin thingie. now this. if u ask me, i think it's liyu who likes him. hahaha:) nvmnvm:) suaning my friend on net. ah wellz.
oh yeah. more update on the candy-nathaniel thingie. they had lunch together today:) *grInz* and they really LOOK like a couple...like those pple who have actually gone out together for a long time actually looks like each other after a while? yeah...they look like that:) ah wellz:)
we looked up a couple of words for gp today...including virile, nubile and pubescent...hohoho. one 'lucky' guy had the fortune to read out the meaning for me to write them down.
sighz. not exactly in the best of moods today...didn't see my og much...and we had tutorial after tutorial after tutorial...and all the projects coming in with the same due date...and the stupid cny booth thingie that's not exactly done yet. and the cca choices. oh nvm.

oh. sometimes it doesn't pay to do ur homework. i did my econs and maths hw...econs hw rocks!!! inflation rate and interest rate...what's the connection? why does the other rise as well when one rises? hahaha. 'cos of economy! good economy! shall not elaborate. interested? take econs! *grInz*
yeah anyway. i did the hw. and the econs teacher couldn't find our class. so no econs. maths teacher postponed his tutorial 'cos he got held up *grumblegrumble*
so many projects to do! bio, chem and gp.and the cny thing. and hw. aargh.

-don't say you love me, unless forever,
don't tell me you need me, if you're never gonna stay
don't give me this feeling, i'll only believe it
make it real, or take it all away-
hmmz. i'm gonna get teased really badly tomorrow in school by my ct. very badly.
*grInz* anywayz...went for the 'bai yun gang' auditions today...hehe. i was acting as a schizphrenic working class person. hahaha. quite fun:) but u gotta think of your own lines and everything else.
but i dun think i'll get in...'cos i told them i love band and is very happy learning the flute. hehehee...
went for the auditions to accompany candy actually. hahaha
speaking of candy. poor her. she's getting qns from almost everyone asking her 'so do you like nat?':)
'cos apparently this guy called nathaniel likes her...and has 'fallen' quite deeply. hohoho. even though they've only known each other this year. how fun:)
okayokay. i hope no one in my og actually reads the blog. don't think so right? *peer peer*
ohohohh!
i'm very proud of myself. hahaha. i know most people will boggle at me or something...but i'm really proud of myself. managed to 2km without stopping at all..hahaha. then the sixth run i stopped and brisk-walked for half a round...then started running. 7th round i stopped again...but after 1/4 round, i ran the rest of the way:) we only did 7 rounds today. hehehe:)

hmmmz. complications in the cny stuff. ah wellz. nvm:)
jie yu was very nice to give more suggestions. hehe:)
that's all for now. until i settle more of the cny stuff:)

we had a crash course in music today:) *grInz* just the basics...the treble clef, the time signature, the repeat thingie, minum (?) and blahblah. tie, slur...blah. basically everything that'll ensure that we know what we're reading about...then the first four notes for flute... b-flat, c, d and e sharp. i think. can't remember. nvm:)
then about how we're supposed to stretch our breath...ah wellz. felt a bit dizzy after the practice:) supposed to be normal for beginners:) *grInz*
then we were allowed to go at 1.30...but li hui (playing the saxaphone:) and i decided to stay back to practice more...'cos...well, we're beginners! ah wellz:) yeah..then stayed until 6.30...and i decided to borrow the flute home:) *grInz* Terina's buying the yellow cloth for my flute..'cos my cloth was borrowed by candice...and goodness knows where it went.
saw the whole bunch of my og members today... ALL going for CO. hmmph. the 'bunch' includes weiyang, yourong, kimhong, rosa, xiao qian and darlene. hmmz. should have someone else. let me think. ah nvm.
saw ernest today too...quite duh 'cos he's in band. oh yeah! another female flautist joined us today:) her name's called ingrid:) *grInz* sounds like someone from the harry potter series. hehee:)
oooh. guess wat? there're only two flautists in j2. one is terina, and the other is the nice girl who lent me the fingering chart to photocopy:) *grInz*
ahah. sleepy. very sleepy. extremely sleepy. where's highland road?

hohoho. forgot to mention. i've been sabo-ed to be in charge of the cny booth. hohoho.
-somebody save me!-