thank God i managed to scrape past. been praying and praying to just get promoted (can't really hope for too much looking at the stupid papers). really really really thankful:)
though for this exam, everything's that supposed to go wrong went alright, while everything that's supposed to be alright went terribly wrong. (with the exception of maths, gp and chinese:) i thought i've only attempted like a third of my case study for econs, in the end, i passed my case study. i thought i can do okaily for my econs essays, and in the end, they disappointed me greatly. haha:) quite amusing. and to think that i didn't much study for econs and studied like nuts for bio...and in the end, i got 9 marks higher for econs than my bio. not fun. not fun at all.
teachers were very nice today. especially mr ho. hahaha:) he was like...exceptionally nice. said that he saw people in some other classes crying, then commented that he just saw a guy crying nearby or something. then he said he was quite surprised 'cos it's a guy and all that. then he said that could be due to gp or something ('cos gp compre was very horrid this time and in some other classes, a lot of pple didn't pass ... they got less than 45 marks) then he said that in comparison with the other alphabet classes, he's quite okay with our marks (:P) he shared that there are students who got A in midyrs and got an O this time...then he said that there was a student who got 60++ for his midyrs but got 30+ for promos..and he told him straight in the face that the guy deserved it 'cos he had been sleeping in class. haha:) and he told our class at least no one in this class deserved him to say that to. at least that's something nice. he also asked if anyone of us is emotionally unstable. which was...relatively amusing:D
and mr chan was very sweet today too. promised to help me search for one more mark for econs (the impt of 1 mark!) and he talked a bit to us too:)
i think i'm just going to keep praying and praying now for u, steph:) if my prayer was answered, yours will be too!:)

can't remember how to sing the first part of this song...can someone help?

"Love song for a saviour" - jars of clay
In open fields of wild flowers,
she breathes the air and flies away
She thanks her Jesus for the daises and the roses
in no simple language
Someday she'll understand the meaning of it all
He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on her lips
Someday she'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call her and she will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and she'll pray,

"I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You"

Sitting silent wearing Sunday best
The sermon echoes through the walls
A great salvation through it calls to the people
who stare into nowhere, and can't feel the chains on their souls

He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on our lips
Someday we'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call us and we will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and we'll pray,

"I want to fall in love with You"

It seems too easy to call you "Savior",
Not close enough to call you "God"
So as I sit and think of words I can mention
to show my devotion

"I want to fall in love with You"

"my heart beats for You"

-let's talk about *cough cough* baby, let's talk about you and me, let's talk about all the good things and the bad things there may be-
let's talk about today, baby!:D
hahaha. okay. nvm. going a bit mad:) just finished reading one of agatha christie's mysteries... (yesyes i know it's primary sch material...but it's nice!!!) quite a nice twist at the back:) book is called 'why didn't they ask Evans?' ah well.
anyway. anyway. anyway.
some of the north sisters were wearing their secondary school uniform today:D hahaha. quite amusing. surprisingly, they still can fit in and still looks like they do fit into the uniform:D as if they're still sec 4 students. ah wellz:D
carrie's birthday today:) wanted to tell her thankz for bringing me to service. but never really got the chance to 'cos me, jits, huichun and christina (hmmmz:D) have got to leave to wash cups. mini cute lil' cups containing simple-looking drinkable liquid saturated with intense meaning. missed the birthday celebrations though:D was nice that all of us got together to celebrate her birthday:) *beamz*

yup. anyway. vj open house was yesterday!:D rocks!:D hahaha. theme of the year is Larc En Ciel...which means colours of the rainbow:) went to school early in the morning to practice taekwondo 'cos i didn't practice with them on friday afternoon and vanessa asked me to take her place 'cos she's gotta do ushering:) luckily we practiced...'cos i forgot the last few steps of the white-yellow stance. hahaha:) then rushed down to help chinese society with that booth, commented that it looks extremely chinese, bought kacang puteh from the Biz Club (they cheated my money. there was a buy 1 get 1 free deal in the goodie bag), then rushed back up.
actually was rushing about during the whole open house:) but it was fun:D did mass dance for two times throughout the day (for the first one, we thought that taekwondo demonstration was going to start already, so we didn't join in) mass dance rocks!:D it's like victorians will all gather together at the link bridge, then u have the whole group of us dancing in unison and cheering whilst everyone else looks at you. and surprisingly, mass dance steps that i can remember came fast and furious to me...and those that i can't, i just follow quite easily too:) wish we can do that everyday. hahhaa:D
let me go further back in time and talk about friday's farewell assembly:) it was quite interesting...we had the dance club performing a dance to the chicago music while a bat was flying above their heads (haha!), two pple singing their own composed songs (complete with music. hmm. think country rock style:D) and some other stuff i can't remember. then we had an ice cream eating competition where mr li shocked all of us by scooping with his hand and finishing 500ml in ... 22 seconds! hehe:) then school went nuts and asked us to sing auld lang syne (???) and you can really feel the school spirit when we all turned to the crest and sang the school song (last time for the J2s)....then after all that came... (what else but...)...mass dance!:D hahaa:) couldn't do couple dance 'cos lydia didn't know the dance and i had no partner:P anyway, saw alywin and kenneth doing the dance together. and they were mashing potatoes like nobody's business. looks so......... (hahhaa:) mad classmates. (yeah. for pple who don't know what mashed potatoes is... ehz. ask a vj person next time. not me though.)
ohohoh! i nearly forgot the very nice clips they showed. school made this wonderful presentation about the '03 graduating batch. hahaa:) said that they're the SARS generation. one of the S represents sexy, suave and something i can't remember either, A for 'ass-tounding', R for 'rebellious (very) and the other S i can't recall. and they had this clip that goes to the music of 'always look on the bright side of life' where they filmed teachers with their heads nodding to the music, and pretending to whistle. very amusing!:D

i feel like just going off to bed, snuggle my head into the pillow, hug the bolster and just sleep, not bothering to do anything else:D *grInz*
very sleepy:( too many sleep bugs trying to bother me. hahaha:)
went down to mj open house yesterday to help a bit:) think God knew that i don't really like going anywhere unfamiliar on my own...so He sent Jacqueline to me:D quite interesting. 'cos i went to the bus stop, then she came to the same bus-stop as me. then it happens that we're taking the same bus, then to the same place, same destination!:D took 31 to tanah merah 'cos she says it's less crowded there...then to pasir ris:) got to know her more too:D
oh dear. i need to go sleep. shall update next time:D ehhehehe:)

free ice cream tomorrow! whoooosh!:D anyway. going to watch pi1 li4 huo3, so no time to update for now:D something iso sent.

Even though I clutch my blanket and growl when the alarm rings.
Thank you, Lord, that I can hear. There are many who are deaf.

Even though I keep my eyes closed against the morning light as
long as possible.
Thank you, Lord, that I can see. Many are blind.

Even though I huddle in my bed and put off rising.
Thank you,Lord, that I have the strength to rise. There are many who are bedridden.

Even though the first hour of my day is hectic, when socks arelost,
toast is burned and tempers are short, my children are so loud.
Thank you, Lord, for my family. There are many who are lonely.

Even though our breakfast table never looks like the pictures in
magazines and the menu is at times unbalanced.
Thank you, Lord, for the food we have. There are many who are hungry.

Even though the routine of my job often is monotonous.
Thank you, Lord, for the opportunity to work. There are many who have no job.

Even though I grumble and bemoan my fate from day to day and wish my circumstances were not so modest.
Thank you, Lord, for life.

hohumm:D
watched 'so close' again this morning. there're definitely certain subtle elements in it. but nevertheless, it's a wonderful show:D got 'Lavender' from steph, shall watch it when i'm free:) the second disc of 'state of divinity' can't be read. so odd. (never touched the first few discs 'cos i watched from episode 10+ onwards) all chinese shows. haha:)
anyway, went to corinne's house to make earrings today:) made 7 pairs! we should really start selling earrings. maybe that can earn some money for the cbf too:) my blue 'dragonfly' earring dropped off though.so now only the yellow one is left. so disappointing...to think that's my only pair of different coloured earrings:P
very happy today:) 'cos i walked to corinne's house...then saw new places and a different route to get to the same destination. saw where cedar is too:) took one hour to walk from toa payoh to her house though:) walked past this church called the Calvary baptist church or something...then the song 'O mighty cross' popped into my mind:) actually, i kinda sang songs most of the way there...'cos got quite a long stretch to potong pasir is quite deserted. no human beings in sight. hahaha:)
i wish i have more times like this...exploring around:D *grInz* ah well. for now i can only make do with knowing how to walk to corinne's house, potong pasir and junction 8. well well.

A boy was sitting on a park bench with one hand resting on an open Bible. He was loudly exclaiming his praise to God. "Hallelujah! Hallelujah! God is great!" he yelled without worrying whether anyone heard him or not.
Shortly after, along came a man who had recently completed some studies at a local university. Feeling himself very enlightened in the ways of truth and very eager to show this enlightenment, he asked the boy about the source of his joy.
"Hey" asked the boy in return with a bright laugh, "Don't you have any idea what God is able to do? I just read that God opened up the waves of the Red Sea and led the whole nation of Israel right through the middle."
The enlightened man laughed lightly, sat down next to the boy and began to try to open his eyes to the "realities" of the miracles of the Bible. "That can all be very easily explained. Modern scholarship has shown that the Red Sea in that area was only 10-inches deep at that time. It was no problem for the Israelites to wade across."
The boy was stumped. His eyes wandered from the man back to the Bible laying open in his lap. The man, content that he had enlightened a poor, naive young person to the finer points of scientific insight, turned to go. Scarcely had he taken two steps when the boy began to rejoice and praise louder than before. The man turned to ask the reason for this resumed jubilation.
"Wow!" exclaimed the boy happily, "God is greater than I thought! Not only did He lead the whole nation of Israel through the Red Sea, He topped it off by drowning the whole Egyptian army in 10 inches of water!"

hmm. just realised that pple have been signing in my guestbook and i didn't know it:D hehee. htmlgear seems to have stopped sending me notices about pple signing my guestbook. ah well:) so odd. shall hafta check it up:D
went shopping today! with lydia, stephie, corinne and ruxuan:) only lydia was on time:( hahaa:) and while we were waiting for others, we helped a japanese guy and commented on the bunch of vj pple gathering nearby, with her telling me about how her church pple are at sentosa and that she's b-o-r-e-d:) oh. and her tale of how to kill corinne;) i didn't do much. i merely tried to teach her the cow song:D
yepz. then corinne came. walked around. went to kfc to eat, walked around somemore. looked at jewellary, clothes. (what else is there to look at?) even went to watson's 'cos we're waiting for steph and rux to arrive:) then lydia decided to not wait for them anyway and we went off to the second level:) corinne saw this shirt in projectBLOODbros that she thought rux will like... think that shop's quite ex. can find perfect substitutes in other places. hahaha:) looked around in warehouse, walked into topmen, then up to topshop, and steph and rux still haven't arrived:D (that is to emphasize how late they were. hahaha. kiddin'!) anyway, surprisingly, steph was earlier than rux:D rux joined us later:)
went to taka levi's later, saw nothing much in there...then we discussed our 'plans' for the day:) decided to go to far east, then back to wisma (i wanted to check out the price of this cross i saw at Le Coral (?) and corinne wanted to buy her tops.), then to taka (steph wanted to buy present for fren), then to heeren (someone needed to do something. can't remember), then to plaza singapura 'cos there're new shops there.
in the end, we couldn't go to plaza sing at all. hahaha:) not enough time:D feet were dying too.
spent quite a lot of time in far east looking at almost every possibly shop with clothing, or accessories, or goodness knows what. got this recommendation from steph:) this shop consists of one-of-a-kind items...and it's really one-of-a-kind 'cos u won't find a second one anywhere. so whatever u buy, it'll be the only one in the whole wide world:D hehehe:) shop is called Mazzario. go find it:) most items are handmade:) yepz:)
anyway, highlight of the day came when lydia and corinne decided to buy the turkish ice cream. super amusing:D anyone who goes to far-east should go and try to find it:D *grInz* chewy icecream!
second highlight came when we saw liling at taka!:D (while eating dinner) hahaha:) and third was neoprints!:D oh dear. i'm shortening everything. really too long:D but had a wonderful and delightful time with them today:D yepz:D

i've got 'chun ni' stuck on my mind now:)all jit's fault. hahaha:)
water bap today was cancelled 'cos of the rain...yup. might as well:) 'cos pple will be more free next time:) so maybe u all can go!:D
had shepherding in the morning at centrepoint macs...felt like it was night instead. hahaha:) 'cos all the shops were still not open and whole place was like ...dark...
had the last word for like class today:) think word for life class was quite interesting:D really built up my foundation and imprinted the truths in me. makes me more aware of all the false doctrines around and why they are false. lots more stuff as well:)
service today was about trusting God in tight spots!:D how applicable. ah wellz:) about finances as well. how apt:D
since water bap was cancelled, me, jits, xinyi and huiling went to Times to read:) actually went with the intention of looking for a baptize name for shuyi...but well. the comics were just too tempting:D read this book called 'the wish list' by Eoin Colfer (okayokay..children's book. but wellz). quite interesting:) kinda reminded me that every action, every word, every unspoken thought that i have will be judged by God in the end:)
going shopping with steph, corinne and lydia tomorrow:) think after tomorrow i won't be going out anymore:) yup:)

ah.
i miss watching hongkong serials:D recalling the times of 'my date with a vampire I and II', 'duo2 qiang1 shi1 jie3' and whatever nonsense with all sorts of pple including but not only chilam(!), hacken lee(!), joyce tang(!), marcus something (!)...hahaha:D and many many many many many more:D they dun seem to show much hongkong serials these days...mostly taiwan shows:) except for the channel u sat 7pm show with hacken lee(!!!):D and ehz. i can't remember the female's name:)
hahaha:)
think i shall go watch 'state of divinity' again. stupid movies:D ah. i forgot anita yuen:) actually, have i ever finished watching 'state of divinity'? hmm.

hmm:) now that i have a lot of time on my hands, i'm looking for more stuff to do:) i want to help where i can!:D
feels so much happier:) at least i'm moving in momentum with time once again:D hahahaa:)
shall wear my hat tomorrow:) i miss my hat:)

lalala!:)
been wondering who this sharon person who smsed me is...then realised that it's the p6 girl from mac fsc:) ah well:)

yah anyway. shall not comment on maths today:P
dear sisters and brothers (if there're any reading this), please pray for me k? pray for the teachers to be SUPER lenient and for me to be able to get promoted:) (hehe. chances of that are very low)
pray that i'll find joy no matter what, and that my source of strength will forever be from Him, so that even if there're bad results shooting me in the face, i'll still be able to stand, for His strength is infinite:)
thank you dear brothers and sisters:)
everybody else, jits and guan-y are both going for water baptism this sunday!:D at around 4 pm at east coast:D if your exams are over, or you really miss us, or you just wanna have an excuse to go to the beach, do join us!:D 'cos this event is quite special to the both of them and they want to share this memorable and joyful occasion with all of you (friends!:D). yup:) if you wanna come (come come!:D), sms me or jits or call guan:)
*grInz*

oh gracious.
rachel has the same birthday as qingz!:D hahaha:)
yep! went for praise and worship night!:D very nice!:)
pastor lawrence was there with his saxophone! hahaha:) added interesting atmosphere to some of the praise and worship songs:)
and there were like...6 pple leading us:) hahaha:)
very nice songs too!:D hahaa:)
we had praise, then worship, then praise again:) 1st praise was good:) but it was the worship that really set my heart in peace and brought out this spirit of joy in me:) had this bubbling cauldron of happiness inside me that was overflowing during second praise:) wonderful! ministered me a lot too:)
and when it ended, we were like 'awwwww' hahaha:) felt like only 30 mins when it had been..ehz. 1 and a half hours+:) heh:)
one day in the house of God is better than 1000 days in the world:) *beamz*

anyway. today's chemistry was horrendous. more horrendous than midyears. felt quite defeated 'cos it seemed like nothing much that i studied actually came out.
ah well. learnt that there are going to be re-papers afterall:) and the teachers are already preparing for them... guess they know that we won't do well. hahhaa:)
but i'll still trust in God's providence and His plan. and maybe through these exams, He's helping me to get rid of my weaknesses and see those blotches i still have in my faith. and i know that even if He doesn't deliver me through the exams, it's part of His plan for me, perhaps to strengthen me, perhaps to correct me.
And that's why when i saw the song 'Heart of Worship', the lyrics just spoke to me a lot. How can i not thank Him for everything He has done for me, the love He has shown me, the aspects in my life He has changed? He let me see how blind i was before, how ignorant i was, how proud i was to think that He didn't exist, how spirtually dead i was to harden my heart against anything anyone spoke to me about, how complacent i was to think that i don't need any God or whatsoever in my life?
some people say that they don't feel God in their lives, they don't see anything happening in their lives even when they pray, that kinda stuff.
But they don't ask themselves, if they haven't even accepted Christ into their lives, if they haven't even bothered to accept Him, if they're spiritually still dead (and not realizing it), how can they hear from Him? God is trying to speak to them, He wants to talk to them, to be a friend, a lover, yet when He speaks, people don't listen.
It's not as if there will be an explosive event whereby people will 'ooooof' all of a sudden hear God's voice talking to them or something. He doesn't force people to accept Him, yet He's greatly saddened everyday when people are still sinning and sinning and unaware that they are sinning. It's a step on our part, an acceptance of a gift from heaven greater than anything else on earth.
Just like a friendship, if i want to be friends with you, yet you don't want to be friends with me, how can i talk to you and help you? And if we've never been friends, then when you ask me to help you with personal things, what can i do?
indeed, the verse matthew 17:12 on joy's blog is quite true too
'What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul?'
ask yourself this question today, do you constantly fill empty? feels like loving someone, yet the person you fall in love with doesn't seem to reciprocate your feelings?
Proverbs 19:22 says 'What a man desires is unfailing love; better to be poor than a liar'. indeed, this unfailing love can only be provided by God Himself. Are you deceiving yourself today? Are you being sceptical? Do you deliberately not want to listen?
I used to be like that too. I would like think to myself 'hah. how do i know if you're telling the truth?' then i'll humour those people who share Christ to me and say 'orh okay. orh okay' or i'll be pissed off (pardon me using these words, but yah. to describe how i felt) when my own classmates had praise and worship sessions in class itself.
Or perhaps you're thinking, how do i know that this God is the right God? well, i didn't either. i just decided to try it out. (and to stop people from bothering me *grInz*)...but ever since, He's shown Himself in many circumstances. and listening to the multiple testimonies around, how can you not believe?
Are you afraid of the truth showing Himself to you?:)

daniel bedingfield just said 'i want a girl who really loves God passionately'
haven't really listened to the radio properly for a long time:) hahaha:) he just repeated that statement. ah wellz:)
quite a funny guy:) oh gracious. he just spoke in chinese. ah. and nice voice too:)
interesting 10 minutes with daniel bedingfield:)
was reading through the milestones Hope of God made as well:) quite cool!:D to think the church actually started out with five people. i feel so inspired now:D hahaha:)

channel u news showed scenes of OBS today!:D reminded me of the things we did.. whole watching jumping rope...building a raft...the trust we have to put in each other...the very low morale after not being able to find the tree we're supposed to find and choo reprimanding us (first and only task we didn't complete...) the night trail on hill 31 (all the talk about wild boars and goodness knows what:)...the time when we sat in a semicircle in the dark talking at noordin beach...ahhhh! then when choo told us that we were one of the closest watch she's ever seen (hehe. we got something special for that:) for just five days we were together (different pple from different classes and ccas in school) and at the end of it all, we felt as if we've been best friends all our lives...ah. i forgot to mention..the 11pm milo that choo pao4 for us...
and qingz was in my buddy watch! though i can't really remember what the name is:) haha...just know it's two words...
anyway, sheares rock! OBS rocks. everyone should go and try it:) ah. if u're in residential, you get wonderful food:D they try to fatten everyone up there.
anyway, had chinese paper today:) compo was okay... paper 2 was a bit harder than normal...but okay too (i hope:)
asked mr lim about how to draw the diagram in thermochemistry today...i was like 'ehz...i don't know anything 'cos i haven't really studied thermochem'...and i had to keep apologizing 'cos he'll ask like 'from gaseous atoms to blah blah...what formation is this?' then i'll be like 'eh...i dunno... sorry!' anyway. now i know:) quite fun to draw once u know..hahaha:D
i really want to thank God for sending Mr Lim, Mr Chan, Mr Ho and Miss Lui to be my teachers, for all my brothers and sisters who kept encouraging me, for my hamster, for His constant presence with me even when i sometimes don't realise it, for His gently correction about my heart's attitude towards some stuff, for my dear friends who are around, here and there, popping up at unexpected times to cheer me up:)
i think i've been rather boggled down by exams the past few days...not anymore though:) it's now viewed as something i need to clear and to try not to disappoint any more people. hahaha:)
happened to flip to psalms 145 yesterday night...comforted me alot:)

ah. arenes are awesome:) hahaha:) find benzene and methylbenzene quite fun. ah wellz:) i still dunno how to draw the energy diagram though...maybe i should go and ask mr lim. hmm.

my econs' dead. horrible case study (to me anyway) + i didn't really concentrate on econs. hmmm.
nvm:) shall depend on chem and maths instead. now how to do that is a very good qn...
i do dislike promos. ah wellz. ah wellz. my life was nice and happy and peaceful before stupid promos decided to upset it.
anyway, after the decidedly horrendous econs exam that i've went through (oh yah! forgot to mention that mr chan was very nice. he came to me before the paper, waved his hand in front of my face and asked, how?...then i told him. cannot cannot cannot. then he say, cannot ah? anyway, back to the main point:), the four of us - me, steph, corinne and lydia decided to go and eat:D i mean, we had the intention of eating...but then it continued on to become window shopping:D *grInz* 'cos lydia's looking for shoes. so, we looked around:) steph, corinne and i shared to buy earrings from topshop... ehz...super big. hahaa:) steph got the pink pair, corinne got the blue pair, and i got the multicoloured one:) those kinda hoop earrings. diameter's the length of three of your fingers placed together. oh. forgot to mention. we were at suntec:)
went to citylink too 'cos corinne wanted to change her sim card:) ah. had a nice time today:) kinda forgot that we're in the middle of exams:P
i need to pia for my chem and maths! it's a needdDdd! i neeeeeeddDdd a pass on my chem!!!:P

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this is what an exam survival kit for me will look like:D
Exam survival kit:
Milo Packet (source of glucose for brain cells)
panadol (headache)
bible (for comfort, guidance and lots lots more)
soft toy which reminds you of happy times (for holding in the hand and feeling better)
water (for nervousness)

first day of exams and i'm dying. hahaha:D gp essay was okay...gp compre was not. didn't do two qns...4 marks gone. no time! thank goodness many people thought it was difficult too...i wrote qn 9 for essay...should criminals be given a second chance in society? hehehe:)
biology completely took the breath out of me. a lot of proteins came out...first half of the year stuff. nearly wanted to tear the paper apart when i saw the qns. so disappointing...i was counting a lot on biology. looks like even the chances of a pass looks faint. hahaha:) nah..
economics tomorrow...not really prepared for it yet...ah well:)

i violently dislike cigarette smokers and ants.
especially ants that bother my clover.

yeah anyway...was watching the simpsons today...at first i was thinking...oh, why're they suddenly talking about prayers and God answers prayers from every christ follower? then as the cartoon goes on, i felt that a tad sarcastic. ah well:) cartoons are cartoons afterall:)
anyway, here's something i noted:
True Courage 2, Ep 3
Thursday, 9 Oct 2003, 9pm

Neivelle Tan - Ironman Turned Pastor

Neivelle Tan was once one of the 10 most wanted men in Singapore.
He began his criminal career by joining the secret society at age 15.
Having spent the most part of his life behind bars, Neivelle was spared the gallows in 1958 because he was under 18 when he committed a murder. Instead, he was detained indefinitely at “Her Majesty’s Pleasure”.
After his release Neivelle failed to make good and turned back to a life of crime. During his time in prison he was known as ‘the iron man’ due to his reputation as the prisoner’s loanshark.
Today, he is a loving father of three and a devoted pastor….
Find out what Neville had to go through to turn over a new leaf and the courage he displayed to get out of the secret society in which he was the leader.

what caught my ears was something he mentioned...he said something about 'it takes real courage to admit that you love jesus'. something like that:)

i'm being more of contemplative or appreciative right now...but since unkymoods.com doesn't seem to have these two moods, the closest i stumble unto is 'thoughtful':)
ah well.
studied with dancing, jayne and jits today at ang mo kio library today. terribly amusing sight this morning just before 10am...when everyone decided to gather outside the library glass panels..first time i've seen anyone so enthusiastic about entering the library:) *grInz* and when the glass panels slid open, one whole group of guys actually ran up to the second level...with another group of girls following not far behind...i merely sauntered in and headed towards cafe galilee, which was surprisingly empty...until i found a seat and everybody else started to swarm in as well. oh well:)
ang mo kio lib has a hologram! or rather...something to do with optical illusion...i was relatively amazed. felt queer when i tried to touch it and it wasn't there though...looks terribly real though:D

hohoho:) pretty much slacked the first half of the day away by procrastinating. watched tv, lay on the bed, slept somemore, watched more tv, looked for food to eat, ate, dilly-dallied once again..
then i felt pretty bad...so i decided to clear up the mess around me:) found quite a lot of 'lost' notes:D *grInz* yepz...was feeling kinda frustrated, with no idea why either...then i decided to call steph to ask her where she's studying...felt much better after that...'cos at least i had a plan as to what to do for the rest of the day:D think that's why i was feeling frustrated...dunno what to do. jits decided to go too:D
so...went there to study, with yun yun and steph:D couldn't find them initially...was walking like an idiot around the tables and chairs and looking puzzled. pple must have thought i'm mad. hahaa:) then steph popped up from nowherE:) ah wellz:)
saw quite a lot of pple...saw a few former ny gals:) saw sihui(!), then dancing and jane joined us too...oh. actually i didn't see a lot of pple..think the stnicks pple saw a lot of pple:) lots of aj pple walking about. ah wellz:) and we sort of 'made' this friend called charlotte...hhaa. 'cos actually she was waving to someone called jesse (is that the right spelling?), then yun thought she was waving to her...so she waved back. hahaha:) anyway, when the library was closing, four strangers she don't know said bye to her:D quite amusing:D and she looked pretty blur about what happened as well:)
going back to the lib tomorrow:D yup.

eh well. looks like i won't be studying at changi airport today afterall:) 'cos the sleepover bunch has decided to go home:) ah wellz:D

eating my dinner now:) *grInzgrInzgrInz*
reached home at around half an hour before...was at the airport half of the day:D
met junting this morning at nyp:) was an...interesting shepherding session:) hehehe:) then went to changi airport bk...saw rux, steph and dancing sitting like...very near joseph and his friend, ken:) super funny:D and they didn't know each other at that time..ah wellz:D
anyway, we had a 8pple caregroup today:D the four of us (huichun, jitsy, ziwei and me) with shanyi, huixian, jean and jason:D *grInz* had games!:D and songs!:D then we split into two groups:D nice caregroup today..hhahaa:) hui xian and jean said that the teaching was quite useful to them:) yeah!
anyway, those three mad pple (:D) are staying overnight at the airport..i wanted to too...but mum won't allow. ah wellz:D jit's endearing dad appeared at the airport and offered to buy us food..how nice:)

good morning everyone!:D i feel so much more relaxed and awake after sleeping for... 7 and a half hours? okay nvm:) woke up to see my hamster in a prowling position with her eyes closed...think she was sleepwalking. hahaha:D so i gently led her back to her bed. ah wellz:)
going to study with steph and rux later at the airport:) like i've said ... the number of times i've been to the airport these past weeks is a few times more than the number of times i've been to the airport in my whole entire life before these few weekz:D *grInz*

ah:) i found my archives...was reading through them when i came to the realisation that i was perhaps more observant, more poetic, more philisophical and more chirpy in the past:) what has education done to me?!
hhahaa:)
well, for one, i no longer ponder about the relationship between the walking pace of different people and the pace of one's progress in life with certain friends, nor do i quote quotes on the blog anymore, nor do i actually discuss about deep provoking questions brought out in an understandable way.
it could also be that the pace of this life no longer bothers me as much, that provoking questions now come with a simple answer, that my security is no longer based on the objects and relationships made in this world, but of somewhere more eternal.
though i must say, i really should aim to cast a more observatory glance into the happenings around me. comment perhaps? a personal touch to a subject which seems relatively impersonal, more general. it is easy to cast a shell of nonchalence towards the things that often happen, preventing all new insights from being made known to us. i figured what i must do, is to clear my assumptions and look in wonder at the things around me once again:) makes you appreciate the people once more:)

:)
had a miscommunication prob with weez this morning...i was waiting for her near the road and she was waiting for me at the carpark:) hahha:) didn't receive her sms...ah wellz:)
surprisingly, there were actually people in school:D didn't want to go to the med talk this morning...saw hanjie and he said there's econs tutorial during the pw period...so, i had my heart set upon going for econs. was walking up the stairs when i saw peilee, huiling and libing heading for the direction of the performance theatre:) well. u see. i figured if the guai-est people are going for the med talk, i might as well tag along:D *grInz*
turns out to be a very good choice:D they got the ceo of dunno wat and the vice dean of nuh? (can't remember) to talk to us...and it wasn't boring at all:D quite personal...and they actually gave the medical field and relatively human side and as they shared about the field itself, it did kinda inspire us in the performance theatre:) talked a lot about the heart...and can really see that they chose this profession fully to serve:) one of the stories shared was actually quite touching:) shall share it here.
anyway, this guy right, he was wondering between sustaining this woman with terminal stage liver cancer with fluids and what-nots and possibly let the woman live for a few more days or just let nature take its course...when he went to see the patient, he actually saw tears in her eyes even when she's semiconscious..comatose...then he went to ask the sister why she's so sad...and the sister said that the woman's son actually quarreled with the woman before he left for england just a few days ago (refused to talk to her after that)...and her other son, who is in sec 4, didn't even bother to visit her in the hospital. so she's quite sad about it...i mean like, imagine, you'll probably die in a few days' time, and your husband had already gone before you, yet your sons refuse to come and visit u..u'll feel abandoned, right?
the doctor, seeing the case, couldn't really take it...so he went to call the son who is in england, said to him 'your mother is dying. you have to fly back and talk to her right away' and he got the sister to call the sec 4 guy. when the sec 4 son came, he asked him to talk to his mum, hold her hand...that kinda stuff:) 'cos the doctor says that even when the person no longer responds, the senses sometimes lasts longer...when the england guy came, the doctor told him the same thing:) the doctor, on his part, will try to keep the patient alive:)
surprisingly, the mother got out of coma after 2 days (most prob 'cos now there's the will to live on) and continued living for another 6 months. should the doctor had given up on her, she would have died on that day or the day after...yet, because the doctor went beyond his call of duty, he allowed the family to be reconciled once more and for the woman to have 6 more months with her sons:)
anyway, the talk emphasized a lot on compassion for others:) was a very nice talk:D glad i didn't miss it afterall:)

Rainbow


?? Which Natural Wonder Or Disaster Are You ??
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got that off xuan an's blog...i think it's one of those biased quizzes whereby most pple will get similar results again:D

sleeeeeeppppyyy:)
looks like i'm blogging after all...school had a surprise spotcheck (maybe it wasn't a surprise to some people, but it shocked me rather)...checking on whether the girls were tucking in their blouses (who does it anyway?) and wearing the belts (they're horribly uncomfortable...anyway, have you ever seen a school with girls wearing belts when their blouses will cover everything? *boggles*)...anyway, the main point is that mr chan took my draw-string away. think i was the only stupid person to actually confess that i wasn't tucking in my blouse...the whole class pretended that they did (some tucked a bit in and showed mr chan, then took it out again). ah well:) lydia and i were laughing like mad when we went to the female toilet after the spotcheck for me to tuck in my blouse...all the way there, it was flapping around like handkerchiefs in the wind:P terribly untidy...hahaha:)
was so troublesome trying to keep my blouse in (troublesome and it looks odd anyway)...so corinne and lydia suggested that i use safety pins...yup. looks better after that:)hahaa:)
number of pple coming to school these days have been dwindling...
haha..anyway, just noticed something interesting:) for those who understand, lydia's specimen was sitting two tables away from us in the library today...and later that day, corinne's specimen sat on that same table!:D

'Now that you're near'

Hold me in Your arms
Never let me go
I wanna spend eternity with You

I stand before You, Lord
And give You all my praise
Your love is all I need
Jesus, You're all I need

My life belongs to You
You gave Your life for me
Your grace is all I need
Jesus, You're all I need

Hold me in Your arms
Never let me go
I wanna spend eternity with You

And now that You're near
Everything is different
Everything's so different, Lord
And I know I'm not the same
My life You've changed
And I wanna be with You
I wanna be with You

And I will sing for You always
'Cause in Your presence God is where I wanna stay

eh. yah. filling up space. hahaha:D prob won't update for the next few days unless something interesting/important crops up:D
name = xinying
piercings = earholes
tattoos = *peers* doesn't seem to have:D
height = 167cm? (170cm the last time me and jits measured on the mrt...but dun think that's accurate)
shoe size = goodness knows:D i always go there and try out...
hair color = blackish brown
length = halfway down my spine
siblings = sister...two years younger than me:)
pets = clover! clover! clover!:D (and she's a hamster! not a cow)

LAST:
movie you rented = rented? how about watched? prince of egypt? with weez and jits
movie you bought = i dun buy them. my sister does:)
song you listened to = 'superstar' on tv
song that was stuck in your head = the theme song of 'tian lun' on channel u. steph can't remember the show name, i can't remember the song name:D
thing you've downloaded = this webpage?
cd you bought = oh dear. i dun think i've bought any recently:P
cd you listened to = steph's own compilation...hahaa:)
person you've called = hui chun...but she didn't pick it up:)
person that called you = no one...*sniff* do smses count?:D
tv show you've watched = triwar...hahaha. channel u again:D
person you were thinking of = my thoughts change every second:D

Do..
you have a bf or gf = Nope
you have a crush on someone = Nope
you wish you could live somewhere else = Nope
you think about suicide = Nope.
you believe in online dating = Nope
you want more piercings = maybe. hahahhaa:D
you want more tattoos = temporary ones:P i wanna try out the sun-tanning thingie..
you drink = water? fruit juice? soup? (i love soups!:D) alcohol? (long long time ago! shauna's paaarrrtty)
you do drugs = who would?
you smoke = definitely not!
you like cleaning = depends.
you like roller coasters = yup:D
you write in cursive or print = sometimes in cursive, sometimes in print (?)
you carry a donor card = nopez

For or Against..
teenage smoking = Against
doing drugs = against
premarital sex = against
driving drunk = against
soap operas = no comments. hahaha:D

Best...
tv show = dunno?
thing in the world = God
thing to collect = joy
colors of all time = orange:D pink too:D
thing to do on a rainy day = Sleep on a nice warm bed hugging ur bolster:D
feeling in the world = peace

Have you...
ever cried over a guy = i think i cried over the death of mr ong teng cheong. how odd.
ever lied to someone = sadly, yes:(
ever been in a fist fight = shall we try?:D hahaha! kidding:D

What...
Perfume do you use = i'll tell you if i use it:P
shoes do you wear = all sorts:D
are you scared of = persecution(i know God will give me strength though:), not having God in my life.

Number...
of continents I have lived in? i've always lived on a dot on the map:D
of drugs taken illegally? i don't take drugs.
of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? lots.
of people I consider my enemies? no enemies.
of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? How about appeared on tv?:D or radio?:D
of scars on my body? a few here and there:)

Have you ever...
Fallen for your best friend? depending on whom i regarded as my best friend at that time
Made out with JUST a friend? made out? i shall remain innocent.
Been in love? i'm in loveeeeeeeeeE~
Cheated on someone? not to my conscience's knowledge...

Who was the last person...
You touched? myself? i just touched my head:D
You talked to? mother:)
You hugged? joy.. on sunday. vj doesn't have the habit of hugging.

Have you/are you/do you....
Considered a life of crime? nopez
Considered being a hooker? nopez
Considered being a pimp? hah. they ask weird questions. nopez
Are you psycho? hopefully not:D *grins brightly*
Split personalities? i'm happy. no. i'm sad. no. i'm going to murder you! (*grInz*)
Schizophrenic? nopez:) ...yes you are!... no, i'm not! ... Hi not! i'm the other part of you:)... how interesting.
Obsessive compulsive? nopez:)
Panic? when i'm under extreme stress and i haven't been sleeping:D
Anxiety? i try to cast them unto the Lord:)
Depressed? no. i'm xinying:D
Obsessed with hate? do i hate? i dun think so. i have rather pastel-ly negative feelings, i think.
Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore? once
Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? never!

Are you...
Understanding: Hopefully.
Open-minded: relatively:D
Interesting: am i interesting? i dunno.
Hungry: always!
Friendly: most of the time:D
Childish: am i?
Healthy: haven't been exercising recently...feeling horrible. own body itches to move about..
Difficult: i should hope not
Thirsty: when my body needs more water, then i'm thirsty:D
Responsible: depends on the situation too
Sad: when?
Happy: all the time - sad times - stressed times - reflective times = happy times:D
Trusting: very. mum says i'm too trusting.
Talkative: hahahahhaa!
Lonely: nopez:D
Own a webcam? nope:)

Currents
Current Clothes: pyjamas.
Current Mood: sleepy:D
Current Taste: not much of a taste...heh:)
Current Hair: is moist. i dunno what the question wants.
Current Annoyance: nothing at this moment:)
Current Smell: night air:D
Current thing you ought to be doing: sleeping
Current Book: 2 corinthians
Current DVD In Player: No DVDs...
Current Refreshment: i peer at the question strangely..
Current Worry: if i'll be able to stay up to finish everything:)
Current Crush: this quiz makes some assumptions, doesn't it?

On Dating....
Long or short hair? bald. nonono! i'm kidding:D
Dark or blond hair? dark?
Tall or short? tall?
Mr. Sensitive or Mr. Funny? no idea
Good boy or bad boy? alliteration!
Dark or light eyes? soulful eyes
Pierced or no? i'll tell u when the time comes

On preferences....
Chocolate milk or hot chocolate? hot chocolate:)
McDonalds or Burger King? burger king:) but it's ex!
Marry the perfect lover or the perfect friend? friend
Sweet or sour? Sour
Root Beer or Dr. Pepper? neither
Sappy/action/comedy/horror? comedy/horror
Ocean or Pool? clean ocean:)
Cool Ranch or Nacho Cheese? cheese rocks!
With or without ice-cubes? ice cubes with cheese? how gross.
Shine or rain? depends on where i am:D
Winter/Summer/Fall/Spring? i want to have autumn all yr round!
Vanilla or Chocolate? Vanilla
Gloves or mittens? neither. bare hands:D
Eyes open or closed? Closed (to sleep)
Fly or breathe under water? breathe underwater:D
Bunk-bed or waterbed? as long as i get to sleep. waterbed's supposed to be good for ur spine though:)
Chewing gum or hard candy? chewing gum:)
Motor boat or sailboat? sailboat:)

yeah! we have a study break:D though it's a mere miserable 2 days at the end of this week, it is nevertheless, still a study break:D guess the principal saw how many people were ponning school to study:D *grInz* grateful for it:)
went to steph's house to study after...*coughcough* 1 pm:D did gp compre and a bit of gp essay:D nice hostess:) giving me fried rice and ice cream and asked me if i'm cold...blahblah. felt a bit bad though...hehehe. eating up her food like that...

i just wanna ask everyone some questions:D
can you state clearly what you believe in?
what are your priorities in life?
will your main priority last throughout your life?
what is the purpose of you studying? what is the purpose of you working? to eat? sleep? enjoy? then what?
rate your life. do you view each day as a routine? can life get better than this?
in difficult circumstances, what is your source of support and comfort? where comes your strength? yourself?
what if you can't take it anymore? what would you do?
have you ever gotten sick of this life? what do you do then? what is your purpose in life?
are you going to just pass by this world? living a mundane life full of cycles? the daily cycle of waking up, eating, going to school, study, cca, eating, watching tv and sleep? then in a bigger cycle, going to school, graduate, have a family/career, not have a family/career, then eventually die?
what will happen after you die? are going to say i'm going to be reincarnated? and you start the cycle again?
what forms the basis of any joy you have in life? materialistic stuff? things that may fade away (clothes, goods, friendship, grades)? should there be a day when all these disappear, where will your joy come from then?
i have firm answers to all of these questions. do you?
would you have the conviction to say that you truely can live this life to the fullest? even one of the entrepreneur of the year recipients could not do so, can you?

hmmz. accidentally closed the page before i clicked post, so now i've gotta type all over again:) yup:) realised that i didn't switch off the main switch for the computer system and my modem was left on all night...hopefully it doesn't start melting or something:) *grInz*
of which reminds me of thursday...when we were supposed to heat a mixture of sodium hydroxide and sodium carbonate (izzit?) for thirty minutes 'cos the solid'll only melt under intense heat, then resolifies again...yup. the interesting thing is that lynette's started to melt very fast...and started to give out clouds and clouds of acidic gas, and all of us in the class started to cough uncontrollably (and laugh at the same time when mr lim tried to talk and couldn't do it) ...so we were evacuated from the chem lab. hahaha:) there was talk that our substance was contaminated...'cos it wasn't supposed to melt so fast... (only after 10 mins or so). yup:) watever it was, it sure was an interested experiment:) nicole's boiling tube melted, yu pei's boiling tube literally broke into half...mine cracked too (so sad)
anyway, go to this website!...official animation of 'turn left, turn right' or something similar...got it off somebody called rach's website when i stumbled unto it upon clicking on nina's 'random blog' link:) saw rux's blog on it...i was like 'huh? the person knows rux???...checked the add and it really was rux's:D
yesterday...had a wonderful caregroup session yesterday:D lots of sharing once again and praying:D we kinda...well...lost track of time in michael's house's heaven room and before we knew it, 3 hours had passed and michael's brother had come home. hahaha:) then we moved to michael's room and shared and prayed:) went home at 9.45pm...5 hours of caregroup:D whoa! longest ever! hahaha:) really happy to have these sisters with me:) even when all of our characteristics are so different, we're still able to bond together:D yup:)
trying out something...hope it doesn't irritate pple (if it does, do tell me)...changing the colour soon though:)

The French led the world in having sex for years, but in 2003, Hungary is the country with the most sex on the globe -- with couples managing to have it 152 times a year. Russia was not far behind at 150, followed by several Eastern European countries, according to the annual 2003 Global Sex Survey by the makers of Durex condoms. France dropped to 144, Britain is at 135 times a year, Spain at 123, Germany at 120 and America at 118, Britain's Sky News reports. However, everyone is having less sex -- the global average last year was 139 times a year, while this year it's at 127 times a year. Singapore came in last at 96 times a year.

*doing* shows why we're having an ageing population:P

testimony from someone i found on the net:D

I tell everyone "I was raised Catholic, but I gave it up for lent."
It usually gets a laugh, but I'm actually just being honest. Growing up, I couldn't stand the Catholic masses my parents dragged me to. It didn't help that we had a priest who, no matter what the gospel passage was about, invariably spoke on one of his six favorite subjects--in monotone. It didn't seem like worship, certainly.
If you've even been to a Catholic service you know what the missal is: a little book with almost the whole service written in advance! It was like reading the script of a play as you were watching it, complete with stage directions: Sit, Stand, Kneel, Sit!
Looking back, I heard a lot of sermons and I even went through confirmation class; but I don't ever remember hearing the message of salvation through Christ. I heard a lot about Sacraments, confession, and communion, though.If you did all these things and went to Catholic church regularly, you were doing ok, it seemed. I thought that that was all it took to get into Heaven.
When I got to college there was no question about whether I would attend the local Catholic service. No way! I didn't need that!
Then I met 'the Christians'. I was 'deep in study' watching Gilligan's Island in the dorm lounge and one of them actually tried to start a conversation like this: "Gilligan's a great show, isn't it? Have you ever considered a relationship with Jesus Christ?" Hey, maybe the in-your-face approach works for some people; but not me. Their heavy-handed-ness drove me away until I decided to be an atheist.
Believe it or not, that was the turning point. I just couldn't bring myself to believe that all this - the world, nature, human beings - were the result of some cosmic chance or accident or even eons of natural development. So I figured there was at least a 'God the Creator.'
Then I met Joe. Joe was a Christian. But Joe was fun! It didn't fit; it was something I'd never imagined: Christians can be real people too!
After talking to Joe (and this is over several months, mind you) I joined a weekly Bible study group with Intervarsity Christian Fellowship. I had one of those little green Gideon New Testaments someone had passed out to me on the Quad. The study went like this: we would all read a short passage together, then the leader would ask us questions.
Everyone sat around, deep in thought, trying to come up with the 'right' answer, but to me it looked obvious--the answer to the question was usually right there in the text, so I ended up speaking quite a bit while the others were still thinking. Maybe my answers weren't very deep, but I was participating. And some of it was making sense.
I kept this up for almost a year, sometimes sneaking away from my friends to go to the study group. I didn't even want to be seen in the hallway carrying a Bible.
During this time I met Michele. We dated for about two and a half weeks and she suddenly broke up with me. I won't tell you the reason she gave; it wasn't the real one anyway. (She had become a Christian and her Christian friends had warned her against having a non-Christian boyfriend. I didn't find this out till years later.)
We continued to be friends. I was still madly in love, but she resisted all of my considerable effort and charm ;-)
Eventually I found out she was a Christian (not when she became one, just that she was now). We were still friends, and I even went to church with her on Sundays (Twin City Bible Church in Urbana, a little non-denominational chapel near the dorms). We even went to one service where the sermon was on Christian/Non-Christian relationships. I asked her what she thought, and she told me that she wouldn't date me unless I was a Christian. But even that wasn't enough to make me take the plunge.
I continued with my study, still not ready to commit. One evening, November 22, 1991, Michele and I were walking back from a movie, and we got to talking. The conversation was still going when we got to her dorm, so we just started walking around the block. We talked about what I thought about Christianity and all that; and then she asked me this question: "What is it that is keeping you from becoming a Christian?"
I forget what I answered. It was something evasive, no doubt. it certainly wasn't the truth, because at the time I didn't even know what the truth was. But I couldn't forget the question. Late that night I finally admitted to myself that I was the only thing keeping me from becoming a Christian.
Laying there in my bunk that night, with the lights off, I prayed a little prayer. I confessed I was a sinner and asked Jesus to come into my life. And this sounds strange but I swear it's true: I felt as if warm water were being poured into me from above, starting at my chest and filling my whole body. It's a feeling I'll never forget, but Christianity is about more than a 'warm feeling'.
The next day I called Michele and told her the good news. To my great surprise, she was angry with me! I hadn't realized that news of that magnitude should be delivered in person, not over the phone!
For some reason I didn't bother to tell anyone else. I still don't know why.. I just talked to people as if nothing had changed.
But the following Sunday at church, it was a Thanksgiving service. At the end, they brought out a microphone on a long cord and took it around the audience, asking people what they were thankful for. Eventually, I stood up and said that "I just became a Christian a few days ago, and I'm thankful for that." I wasn't prepared for what happened next. First, the congregation applauded. That was a complete surprise. Then, after the service, Joe and the people from my study all came up to me "Why didn't you tell me?" "Great News!" "That's Wonderful!".
But I'll never forget what Joe said: "I've been praying for you for a long time, buddy." I never knew! All this time he'd been praying on my behalf, asking God to bring me closer to Him, and I never suspected!
Well, that's not the end of my story, but it's a good place to stop for now. (Except to note that Michele and I were later married in that same church!)
Being a Christian isn't just something you decide to do. It's a process that starts with a decision, and continues the rest of your life. I'm still learning and growing in this new life.

ooof. i feel full now:D just ate dinner:D
went to marine parade library to study with jits and marcus...then xiao3 michael and his friend, nick, joined us...then zi wei joined us, then derek joined us from army camp...then da4 michael joined us wearing his uniform:D yepz:D studied... did tutorial, finished tutorial...peered helplessly at my maths assignment...hehehe:D
at least it was more productive than the day before. shall aim to do more tmr:D

in the school library once again:D *beamz* i need inspiration for my chinese compos! ah well:) at least once i'm done with the compos, i've done my obligation to this subject called chinese for now:)
been feeling very tired these days:) yah well. must ask more for refreshment:D *grInz*

-let the rain of your presence fall on me
everywhere that i go,
Lord let your presence show-
hehe:) had a busy day yesterday..went to st nicks' with steph to study...hehee:) tried the teh tarik there (really not bad!) and some marinated chicken thingie:D met jingsi, jingjun (izzit?) and shuhan:) interesting...hahaha:D
then had mass shepherding with ming xiu and ziwei:D we talked and talked and talked and at the end of it all, poor junting had to summarize what we talked about:D hehehe:D and we didn't have much time to do anything else 'cos after we finished talking, it was already 2.45pm and zi wei and i have caregroup:D hehehe:)
saw eugene during mass shepherding (just when huichun called me:) nice of him to especially come into macs to say hi to me:D *grInz* my daughter! hahaha:)
yup anyway, went to michael's house for caregroup (going to be the east headquarters!)..his brother's room did a redecoration and it's super nice! painted clouds all over and manz...the whole room feels, looks and smells like Ikea:D hahaha:D caregroup was especially long on sat:) had a great time of bonding and fellowshipping and praying to the Lord as well:D
then went to Chittern park for discussion about some stuff:) passed by nyj and heard pple playing bball..wanted to shout out to ask if they're from nyj bball but thought better of it:D though it did look like the bball seniors...all girls somemore...how odd:)
today. service was especially funny:) dunno why but pastor ben seemed to be extra corny today:) (let me quote..."somebody say amen! the chairs can't say amen so someone's gotta say amen!") ah well:) thought it was a wonderful service as well:D including the praise and worship and the sermon. think many people were refreshed through the service:)
then went with xinyi, amaryllis, huiling and jiehui to study:) jie hui accompanied huiling to the mrt station when she wanted to go off to woodlands library...we got a surprise when he and huiling came back, and brought junting as well. hahha:D in the end, i didn't do much at meridien food court...'cos just when my creative juices started to flow, somebody chased us out:(
then me, huiling and amaryllis went to woodlands library to study ('cos woodlands library only close at 9pm:) and junting and jiehui went home ...had a great time to sharing about stuff:) so glad that i have the chance to know the north sisters and brothers these days:D i'm also very thankful that the church is rather united:) thank God for such a wonderful church:D *beamz*

Note: This is a true article that was printed in a southern newspaper less then a year ago

There was an atheist couple who had a child. The couple never told their daughter anything about the Lord. One night when the little girl was 5 years old, the parents fought with each other and the dad shot the Mom, right in front of the child. Then, the dad shot himself. The little girl watched it all. She then was sent to a foster home.
The foster mother was a Christian and took the child to church. On the first day of Sunday School, the foster mother told the teacher that the girl had never heard of Jesus, and to have patience with her.
The teacher held up a picture of Jesus and said, "Does anyone know who this is?"
The little girl said, "I do, that's the man who was holding me the night my parents died"

had a great time with liting (hippy birdsday!:D), steph, corinne and dancing:D went to orchard after an exhausting long wait for everything to be finished, met sihui(!) and proceeded to marche's:D ate lots and lots:D (we're all sharing)...ate lots of potato-ey stuff...such as mashed potato, potato wedges, swiss rosti... yup. u get the idea:D
then we went to take neoprints:D posed and posed and posed like mad...then decorated and decorated and decorated like mad too...was like trying to finish a drawing within a time limit or something...hahhaa:D turns out nice though:D
yup! had a wonderful time even though i'm totally broke. hope we have more of these after promos:D with the vjcians and my former classmates!:D

oh look! i have archives again:D hahaha...haven't had archives since a long time ago:D
-long, long time ago,
in a galaxy faraway,
naboo was under an attack-
yepz:) was doing pw in the comp lab after school as well...lots of craziness started when serene and pat went a tad mad from the intense amount of pw report editting and starting laughing uncontrollably:) the madness kinda passed onto me as well..and before we knew it, serene and i were sending this e-card to patricia which started like this: my dear farling, my belorvud... from victoria to pahtrick. ah well. long story:) my pw group has a group e-mail though!:D rocks:D
was flipping through the 1999 VS yearbook with corinne ('cos she's looking for...someone...;) when i stumbled unto two familiar names:D *grInz* three rather...including last year's vj sc president:) saw joseph and xuan an in there...very cute! hahahaa:) u'll feel like pinching their cheeks:D
tried squash for the first ever time today:) quite fun:D...though i kept missing the ball:D and i agree...rather addictive. hahaha:)
yeah anyway, steph and i are keeping each other awake by smses:) must study hard!:D

Circle of Friends (find this song very true:D)

We were made to love and be loved
But the price this world demands will cost you far too much
Spent so many lonely years just trying to fit in
Now I've found my place in this circle of friends

In a circle of friends, we have one Father
In a circle of friends, we share this prayer
That every orphaned soul will know, and all will enter in
To the shelter of this circle of friends

If you weep, I will weep with you
If you sing for joy the rest of us
Will lift our voices too
But no matter what you feel inside there's no need to pretend
That's the way it is in this circle of friends

In a circle of friends, we have one Father
In a circle of friends, we share this prayer
That we'll gather together no matter how the highway bends
I will not lose this circle of friends

Bridge:
Among the nations, tribes and tongues
We have sisters and brothers
And when we meet in heaven
We will recognize each other
With joy so deep and love so sweet
Oh, we'll celebrate these friends
And life that never ends

In a circle of friends, we have one father
In a circle of friends, we share this prayer
That it will not be long before all will enter in
To the shelter of this circle of friends
That it will not be long before all will enter in
To the shelter of this circle
Of friends

Reason Enough - Avalon

I don't know what You saw in me
But I'm glad you believed
In spite of my condition
That Your mission was to rescue my heart
Don't understand the sacrifice
Why You gave up your life for the sake of my soul
Only heaven knows
There's a mystery that lies
Within the logic of your love
There's an undying mercy
That I'm unworthy of
If that isn't reason enough to love You
Reason enough to give You
All of my heart and soul
There'll never be a reason
If that isn't reason enough to trust You
Reason enough to give You
All of my life I know
There'll never be a reason
If that isn't reason enough
You have opened my eyes to see
The miracle You have made of me
I am your creation
So keep reminding me
There's a mercy so much stronger
Than the weaknesses in me
And there are glimpses of Your power
That make it easy to believe

hmmm. in the library comp lab now... trying to finish up the evaluation of religious conflicts with the Pill. dun exactly know how to edit it...supposed to have econs lect now...heheheh:) seems like the school has lesser and lesser pple nowadays...though my class still maintains its nearly full attendence:) super guai class!:D although i have a feeling that there'll be people ponning class for pw again tomorrow:D *grInz*
we dissected a sheep's heart yesterday... according to lydia, miss lui seems to be having fun poking her finger through the aorta and the pulmonary artery...to me, it seems as though she's doing something she has to do but dun wish to do...ah wellz:) 'cos she has to show us the various parts of the heart. it looked nicer on screen rather when we went nearer to look at the read specimen. at least it was much cleaner than the pig's heart we dissected in sec 4 (no blood clots, minimal blood flow, no lumps of fats here and here...)
studied with xinyi, amaryllis and someone called jason (can't remember his chinese name though) from vjc yr2 ---amaryllis' friend:) yesterday at plaza sing kfc:) relatively interesting('cos i've never seen the person in school before..and he's in taekwondo too!), extremely distracting'cos we were talking...then got something about riddles and cats and dogs...)positively exhausting(studying immediately after a day of school??) and financially dehydrating:D(no more financial flow...). oh yah! xinyi has become my other twin:D so now xinyi, me and yingxin can be triplets!:D hehehhe:D wonderful, ain't it?

ho-humm:D
i bought a new bag today!:D hahahaa:D 'cos me and jit rather liked zi wei's bag...and since both of us needed new bags, we've decided to get the same one as zi wei's:D yup...then i thought, hmm...why not get hui chun to buy it too?:D then we have a caregroup bag:D *grInz*
yups... so in the end, all three of us bought new bags:D just a little bit different from zi wei's...i got pink (was deciding between pink and olive...but hui chun and jits says pink looks more me *grInz*), jits got red and hui chun got sky blue:D will be quite interesting if jun ting gets one too...hahaha:) since all her sheep have the bag:) (mingxiu too!:D)
seems like the teachers were nicer today...hahha:D mr ho was extra smiley , mr toh was being extra nice to us 'cos there's observation, mr lim was...well, being mr lim (though he looked a tad tired) and mr chan was... being mr chan too:D hahaha:D though he seemed to be perpectually walking to our side and looking at our papers... think he's concerned about our grades *grInz* anyway, for my first ever econs case study test, i got a 12/30...hahaha:D super funny:D
only 7 pple passed...lydia passed too! quite li1 hai4:D oh..now to think of it, no guys passed. wellus.

hmmm..
just realised that this past week, i haven't really updated a lot... ah well:)
just wanna share something here...(think i shared it with a few pple here and there:)
was just watching 'the last supper' yesterday...when the people presented this scenario:
It is 1909...you're eating dinner with adolf hitler and you know that there's a blue bottle of wine on the table which contains poison. would you pass him the bottle of wine for him to drink, so as to kill him? knowing the things he will do if you don't?
and then i was just thinking...he did kill a lot of people...persecuted a lot of jews...placed them in gas chambers and slaughtered them and what-nots...thousands and thousands of them...it certainly was tempting to just kill him. hahaha!:D
but then... the commandment 'thou shalt not kill' came strongly into my mind. and i was thinking... it's a sin to kill. a grievious sin which will cause God to be much disappointed and to grief. and then i came to the conclusion that i will not kill hitler...'cos when he dies, God's wrath will be on him and he'll eternally be in hell, suffering much worse than what he has done to others. and i figured that it's not for me to judge a man too...for only God can place judgement on people:)
yup. will you have killed adolf hitler?
anyway, i watched 'lavender' (chinese name is called xun1 yi1 cao3)...yepz. was super nice:D hahaha:D it was about this angel of happiness (played by takeshi kaneshiro) who dropped onto earth and then he discovered what was sadness and love. story plot was rather cliched...but it was very amusing and allowed me to appreciate my sense of smell even more (strange as it may sound:D). gave me a nice and peaceful feeling too:) hahaha:)
i want to watch the vcd!

There once was a man named George Thomas, pastor in a small New England town. One Easter Sunday morning he came to the Church carrying a rusty, bent, old bird cage, and set it by the pulpit. Eyebrows were raised and, as if in response, Pastor Thomas began to speak..."I was walking through town yesterday when I saw a young boy coming toward me swinging this bird cage.
On the bottom of the cage were three little wild birds, shivering with cold and fright. I stopped the lad and asked, "What you got there, son?"
"Just some old birds," came the reply.
"What are you gonna do with them?" I asked.
"Take 'em home and have fun with 'em," he answered. "I'm gonna tease 'em and pull out their feathers to make 'em fight. I'm gonna have a real good time."
"But you'll get tired of those birds sooner or later. What will you do?"
"Oh, I got some cats," said the little boy. "They like birds. I'll take 'em to them."
The pastor was silent for a moment. "How much do you want for those birds, son?"
"Huh?? !!! Why, you don't want them birds, mister. They're just plain old field birds. They don't sing. They ain't even pretty!"
"How much?" the pastor asked again.
The boy sized up the pastor as if he were crazy and said, "$10?"
The pastor reached in his pocket and took out a ten dollar bill. He placed it in the boy's hand. In a flash, the boy was gone.
The pastor picked up the cage and gently carried it to the end of the alley where there was a tre e and a grassy spot. Setting the cage down, he opened the door, and by softly tapping the bars persuaded the birds out, setting them free.
Well, that explained the empty bird cage on the pulpit, and then the pastor began to tell this story.
One day Satan and Jesus were having a conversation. Satan had just come from the Garden of Eden, and he was gloating and boasting. "Yes, sir, I just caught the world full of people down there. Set me a trap, used bait I knew they couldn't resist. Got 'em all!"
"What are you going to do with them?" Jesus asked.
Satan replied, "Oh, I'm gonna have fun! I'm gonna teach them how to marry and divorce each other, how to hate and abuse each other, how to drink and smoke and curse. I'm gonna teach them how to invent guns and bombs and kill each other. I'm really gonna have fun!"
"And what will you do when you get done with them?" Jesus asked.
"Oh, I'll kill 'em," Satan glared proudly.
"How much do you want for them?" Jesus asked.
"Oh, you don't want those people. They ain't no good. Why, you'll take them and they'll just hate you. They'll spit on you, curse you and kill you. You don't want those people!!"
"How much?" He asked again.
Satan looked at Jesus and sneered, "All your blood, tears and your life."
Jesus said, "DONE!" Then He paid the price.
The pastor picked up the cage he opened the door and he walked from the pulpit.

i'm sick:( horrible. again. i'm sick... again.
except that this time it's just a normal sore throat, cold and cough.
i'm so thankful that i can finally rest today:D been going on and on and on for the past three weeks. sleep deprivation and what-nots... even on weekends. hahaha:) doing most things half-heartedly as well... very bad.
ah wellz:) that's in the past. really very glad that today's a day of rest and retreat...so that i can have the energy to go on living an even more exciting life, for me and for christ:)
yepz. anyway, church had a mooncake party yesterday:D *grInz*went really well...considering the short amount of time that we started preparing everything (since last wednesday). very glad to be able to serve together with the sisters and brothers:) guess all the preparations were really worth it:D yepz. dancing and steph, hope u had a nice night yesterday:D

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hahahaha. i like the sound of it:D *grInz*

ah wellz:D
here's some daily news:D *grInz*
had stupidified thigh training on tuesday during taekwondo...terribly tiring:D after doing the training i could hardly stand...then we had to do backthrusts without resting. nearly dieded. hahaha:D two days after the training, my thighs still feel like they're going to die. very happy today when corinne says that she went through thigh training before too...she understands what i'm going through:D *grInz*
ah. let's skip wednesday:)
today! very horrible day. hahaha:D had two tests! it's like, the main purpose of today for our class is merely the tests...'cos chem tutorial is to revise for the test and gp is...redundant. chinese as well. so the main highlights of today are the econs case study test and the horrible chem test 2:D dun think i'll do well for either of them. aw shucks. at least i won't be the only one peering at the case study test results in dismay...hahaha:D our first ever case study test!:D rocks manz. chem seemed easy. just that i dunno how to do the basic stuff. mr lim rocks though:D his constant revision seemed to help a bit:D
anyway, i'm really happy and relieved today's over:) had an intense chinese society exco meeting today as well. all the talk about hai3 cheng2 and what-nots...protecting the play...how we promise to do everything ourselves..two scripts have been written, even the committees are out. just hope that our teacher-in-charge will allow us to do it:) going to die next year in the first three months:) hopefully the grace of God will pull me through:)
went to eat and study with corinne after the meeting:D halfway when we're doing so, who do we see coming in? monkey. hahahaha:D super amused. he left after eating and studying a bit 'cos it was getting rather noisy...went to bk, then he seemed to disappear:) ah wellz:)
took 135 home today...so much faster than 31!:D took to near corinne's house and changed to 155...hahaha:) reached home in 45 mins. fastest record ever:) corinne was very nice:) waited with me for the bus to come:) thankz!:D

i've realised that my soul feels troubled whenever there's threaten of change...like yesterday when i found out that junting's going to get transferred to the west unit, i just felt an immense sense of sadness...it's relatively odd. didn't quite understand it...i mean, i'm happy for hui chun that she's able to rise up to be the cg leader, and happy that we're starting a west unit... and yah, even though junting's going to be transferred, i'll still see her anyway. but i still feel sad that things won't exactly be the same. so i prayed for serenity. finally the line 'i pray for the serenity to accept things i cannot change' comes with a strong meaning...
then realised that it's 'cos i dun want the change in my life...i like the way things are, why should they change? had this feeling a couple of times, like at end of sec 1, fungi's haircut, when kevin said something...blah. all sorts of nonsense.
another thing i realised is that though the church may already be the most secure and consistent place in the world, there're still internal changes here and there (eg. restructuring)...and that the only constant and unchangeable truth is God:) makes me appreciate Him even more:)
haha...just realised again. there're only two constant things in life - change and God.

	Cheer Bear You're the Care Bear cheerleader! Your spunky personality and optimisim lifts everyone's spirit. Though you want everyone to be happy, you stand your ground on issues you feel strongly about and this can bring disunity among your friends. Despite this, you are a true believer in working together.
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all of you people whom i know (friends and brothers and sisters and mother and father) will always be first on my priority list:D so if for any day you feel unimportant, remember me!:D *muackZ*!
hey. i dun usually give kisses. appreciate it.
muahahhaa!:D

1am in the morning and what am i doing? homework. hahaha:D
finally got down to doing hw at around 10 pm...after going to muji to buy a new pencil (pen?) case, pens and what-nots. felt the after-symptons of sat's sickness lingering about as even as i walked about... so decided to go into the Life store:) came out feeling very happy and refreshed:) the store was playing nice familiar worship songs (don't ask me what, i have a terrible short-term memory) and the store person is nice and friendly:) all students get a 10% discount btw. hahaha:)
-Lord i lift your name on high,
Lord i love to sing your praises,
I'm so glad you're in my life-
yepz. anyway. had a nice long rest for the past three days:D sleeping for ...more than 12 hours a day... both in the night and in the day. ah wellz. i'm dead though. haven't touched any hw yet. can't be helped. i'm sick:P hehehee...

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i'm amazed...i just used 18 seconds to download a 4.14mb file...send the mtvs in manz!:D cable rocks!:D

yeah manz:D
it's installed:D super fast. downloads in..1 second or something. ah wellz. too bad i dun have a burner...or else i can burn lots and lots of songs right now. ah wellz:D

where there once was frustration,
there is hope
where there once was fear,
there is comfort,
where there once was just you,
there is God.

the reason as to why i didn't update yesterday even when i was at home was 'cos i was stupidifyingly sick ever since i woke up at 7am. (ehz. dun think there's a word such as stupidifying. but it sounds nice anyway, haha:)
had fever and i couldn't stand up at all 'cos i'll start feeling puke-ish and dizzified (nono...there isn't such a word as dizzified as well) once i try to stand up. then my vision will turn black and then i can't hear and before i faint or something, i'll tumble onto my bed and everything will come back progressively once more:) (the word progressive has been stuck on my mind ever since word for life lesson this morning)
so, i had to call long yuan to tell her i had a fever, can't go for caregroup and the seminar and had to spend like 3/4 of the day lying in bed sleeping. hahaha:) at least i had lots of rest:) had a nice time talking to my mum as well:) ate my first meal at 3+(?), then proceeded to puke everything out after i ate medicine which is supposed to prevent me from puking. ah wellz:)
second meal was at 7++... mi fen tang:D not much appetite either:)
anyway, main point is that i feel so horribly horrible that seriously, i couldn't see any thing to learn from me being sick. ('cos i believe that through everything, God will give me something to learn). but then, i'm shortsighted (literally and figuratively, and God proved Himself to me once again:D)
felt much better this morning, so i decided to go for wfl class:) met mingxiu at the mrt station waiting for xuan an...then i thought, okay, so me and jitsy aren't the only ones who're going to be late. hahaha:)
went to class and found out that our instructors are late too! eepz. heh:) ah wellz.sat with jun ting and someone else who was also late:) (not very good...this bad habit of not being punctual) and just basically viewed the whole class with a feeling that i'm detached from the world. luckily my mind could still work. hehehe:)
then huichun and junting prayed for me for healing once more...and jun ting said something about 'have the faith to believe'. guess my faith in God wasn't strong enough, 'cos immediately after i stepped out of the place, i felt intense giddiness...and has to sit on the bench outside the bioskin place. ah wellz:) felt quite bad actually. huichun had to be with me for the whole entire seemingly long journey to nexus...'cos i kept resting after walking every few minutes:P
gradually, i could feel God's presence coming unto me...from all the pple around me who were concerned about me...all at once, i could feel once again how loving and caring my brothers and sisters are. very touched. they make God visible to me when i'm sick:)
and i witnessed a healing today!:D on me:D was healed after the service... had to build up my faith throughout the service though...kept praying and praying (think pple were praying for me too:) to ask for healing:D and God is good:), He healed me:D and from being extremely weak, not wanting to talk at all and hardly able to walk properly, i could talk a lot, jump a bit and yepz. walk around by myself without help from anyone. hehehe:D and i learned how to praise Him in whatever situations i'm in too!:D
i feel that i easily forget about the good things God has done for me...must need constant reminders. hehehe:) not very good. must remember:)

sister was singing this song:) and i suddenly had the urge to look up the lyrics:) so here it goes:)

[God rest ye merry gentlemen]

God rest ye merry gentlemen,
Let nothing you dismay,
Remember Christ our Saviour
Was born on Christmas Day;
To save us all from Satan's power
When we were gone astray.

O tidings of comfort and joy,
Comfort and joy,
O tidings of comfort and joy!

From God our heavenly Father
A blessed angel came;
And unto certain shepherds
Brought tiding of the same;
How that in Bethlehem was born
The Son of God by name.

[Chorus]

Now to the Lord sing praises,
All you within this place,
And with true love and brotherhood
Each other now embrace;
this holy tide of Christmas
All others doth deface.

[Chorus]

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hahaha. whatever that may be. i have never heard of it before:D prob an alcoholic drink or something. speaking of which, red wine mooncake is yummy:D lag lag lag...tried that favour last friday. hahahaha:D nina would know:)

Find your inner Smurf!
papa smurf? what does papa smurf do? how odd:)
yepz anyway.woke up super late today...i nearly fainted when i saw the time. hahaha:D poor weez had to stay at home for a long while before getting out of house to finally go to school:) can't exactly remember what i did in school today...too stoned i suppose:)
steph. here's a hug for u!:) *hugs*
had a refreshing time during bible study with junting, as well as with yingying, clydina and ming xiu:D though i think i babbled quite a lot of nonsense today. neurones in the brain aren't sending electrical impulses very well:)
wonder if the whole world's looking out for mars right now:D just looked out and saw nothing but a satellite blinking:D hehehe:) shall continue watching out for it:) used to love astronomy like nuts...buying all the astronomy books and what-nots. hahaha:) wonder what happened to that passion:) guess it has been translated to loving science-fic magazines like nuts. like Analog(!) and Asimov(!):)

With the escalating influence of globalization, the world is beginning to look at matters such as info-communications, biology, technology, religious fundamentalism from new and quite often, revolutionary perspectives. How can the youths of today – the leaders of tomorrow – remain competitive in the pragmatic New Economy without losing sight of our ethical values in the face of mounting socio-economical pressures from all fronts?
To explore this situation further, it is the pleasure of the Living Life Arm of the Generation ACTS Club to bring you the seminar “Remaking the Singaporean Youth”. Our distinguished guest speaker for this event is Dr Vivian Balakrishnan, Minister of State for National Development, Trade and Industry. Dr Balakrishnan has also recently been appointed as Chairman of the National Youth Council. His passion for youths is evident and it is indeed our immense privilege to have him speak at our seminar.

In the 45-minute address cum 1 hour question and answer session, you can expect Dr Balakrishnan to touch on various issues such as:

* How youths today can achieve their aspirations in a seemingly pragmatic society.
* The role youths, youth workers and youth organizations could play in remaking the Singaporean Youth.
* The projected state of youths in Singapore in the next 5-10 years and the implications this would have on youths, youth workers and youth organizations.

By organising this seminar, we hope to create and promote awareness of the issues facing us today and learn from our guest speaker how we can play our part as both individuals and as an organisation such as our club to help in “Remaking the Singaporean Youth”.

Admission to this seminar is strictly by invitation-tickets only; hence, we appreciate your registration before the 20th of August 2003. Tickets will be released only upon confirmation and payment on the 21st August. We urge you to register quickly to avoid missing out on the opportunity to learn more about how and where you would fit in “Remaking the Singaporean Youth”.

Seminar details

Title : Remaking the Singaporean Youth
Guest Speaker : Dr Vivian Balakrishnan, Minister of State for National Development, Trade and Industry
Date : 30th August 2003 (Saturday)
Time : 1.30 pm to 4.30 pm
Venue : Orchard Hotel, Ballroom 3
Fees : S$5 per participant for members, $10 for non-members
Contact : Respective community representatives

yepz. anyone interested can just tell me:D strongly recommended to go!:D if u're interested, i'll go too:D

was very nice studying with corinne, steph and dancing just now at burger king:D very fun, very happy. very ...fattening
hahhaah:D 'cos i kept eating and eating like mad. according to my calculations, i've eaten a total of 6 full meals today:D wonderful, ain't it?:D
ah wellz. just wanna say it was great studying with u all:D let's study together again, yah?:D

yepz:D send michelle off on sunday night... going to miss her cheekiness and everything else. ah wellz:)
i feel very guai these days...never pon any lessons yet:D hahaha:D though i've been sleeping in lects and tutorials...so i guess it doesn't make too much of a difference:)
found out that i've a very nice og mate indeed:D javin's a nice og mate who always answers my questions without asking:D very glad for my og. hahaha:D epirotes! we rock:D
anyway...i set a book free today:D hehehe. go to the website bookcrossing.com for more details:D yepz. hopefully someone will pick up the book and write a journal entry on it:D if no one does...i'll just hafta release another book. they say only 1 in 10 books get lucky enough to have a journal entry. so i'm kinda prepared for that:D anyway, i left the book on bus 197 on the way to dunno-where:D hehehe:D nearly forgot to write this down...until steph reminded me on msn:D thankz!:D
oh yah! must write this down too:D just now when i was feeling super tired, super lethargic and super dun-want-to-do-anything-but-sleep on the bus on the way home, i suddenly felt like praying to God:D hehehe..so i decided to talk to Him in with a very tired state of mind and i was praying that i can keep awake at least for quiet time:) then all of a sudden, a thunderstorm began! it was like...one moment, nice and peaceful, next moment, lightning and thunder and heavy showers:) hahaha:D felt very surprised and very happy 'cos i love rainy nights and yepz. the rain was what allowed me to become alert and more awake:) must really thank God for that:D He knows exactly what i wanted:) amazinG:D

A LETTER TO YOU FROM SATAN
I saw you yesterday as you began your daily chores. You awoke without kneeling to pray. As a matter of fact, you didn't even bless your meals, or pray before going to bed last night.
You are so unthankful, I like that about you. I cannot tell you how glad I am that you have not changed your way of living, Fool, you are
mine.
Remember, you and I have been going steady for years, and I still don't love you yet. As a matter of fact, I hate you, because I hate God. I am only using you to get even with God. He kicked me out of heaven, and I'm going to use you as long as possible to pay him back.
You see, Fool, GOD LOVES YOU and HE has great plans in store for you. But you have yielded your life to me, and I'm going to make your life a living hell. That way, we'll be together twice. This will really hurt God!
Thanks to you, I'm really showing Him who's boss in your life with all of the good times we've had. We have been watching dirty movies, cursing people out, stealing, lying, being hypocritical, fornicating, overeating, telling dirty jokes, gossiping, being judgmental, backstabbing people, disrespecting adults, and those in leadership positions, no respect for the Church, bad attitudes.
SURELY you don't want to give all this up. Come on, Fool, let's burn together forever. I've got some hot plans for us. This is just a letter of appreciation from me to you. I'd like to say "THANKS" for letting me use you for most of your foolish life. You are so gullible, I laugh at you. When you are tempted to sin, you give in HA HA HA, you make me sick. Sin is beginning to take its toll on your life. You look 20 years older, and now, I need new blood. So go ahead and teach some children how to sin. All you have to do is smoke, get drunk or drink while under-aged, cheat, gamble, gossip, fornicate, and live being as selfish as possible.
Do all of this in the presence of children and they will do it too. Kids are like that. Well, Fool, I have to let you go for now. I'll be back in a couple of seconds to tempt you again. If you were smart, you would run somewhere, confess you sins, and live for God with what little bit of life that you have left. It's not my nature to warn anyone, but to be your age and still sinning, it's becoming a bit ridiculous.
Don't get me wrong, I still hate you. IT'S JUST THAT YOU'D MAKE A BETTER FOOL FOR CHRIST.

P.S. If you really love me, you won't share this letter with anyone

and today. went for usual service:D wonderful praise and worship! hahaha:D brilliant songs there was:D bought some stuff from Hope resource as well:) wonderful bookstore:D hahaa:)
sad to say. i lost my pencil box. can't find it at all. ah wellz. nvm about it:D
shall talk about the dinner with michelle tmr:D terribly sleepy now:D goodnight:D

saturday:D it was nice having a sink to myself while doing chem practical...although the part about having all the bottles leaking out their contents all over my hand was not a particularly nice experience. oh yah! i broke a testtube too... heh:) chem promos prac over. one down. lots more to go:D *grInz*
had bible study in the afternoon with mingxiu:D then we did lots and lots of homework:D hahaha:D not finished with them yet though. was writing out the points for bio essay when the paper flew to the chilli ...and tata! i have chillified paper. then rewrote it and tata! it happened once more. rewrote it again and tata! hahaha:D dun need me to continue to guess what happened:D so i decided to just use tissue to wipe the chilli off. ah wellz:D
went to the first ever Uni service after that...service was so cool!:D had pple all dressed up like the agents in matrix...then had a wonderful mime being put up by our creative team:D as Alan said, it's truly just a notch beneath world class standard:D had a wonderful teaching about philosophy, Jesus and blah too:D my foundation was built up too:D
very happy to see Shu Wen (nyjc bball mate) and Adeline (primary school classmate!:D) on sat night..hahaha:D
ohohoh! i found out that eng hao was from poi ching too (apparently). can't remember who told me though. hehehe:D

it is the morning after uni service:D hahaha:D supposed to be doing something to send to junting right now but i feel sleepy..tired...lethargic...lack of sleep...brain cells dead...hope she doesn't kill me if i send it tomorrow morning instead:)
when was the last time i updated? thurs? fri?:D think it's thurs. let's talk about what happened on friday:) *grInz* friday morning was terribly amusing:D was happily thinking that i've finished pw and was going to sleep at 12+ when jac called me up and told me happily that she couldn't receive my e-mail..so i had to drag myself outta bed and send it to her..then she asked if i can categorize them...blah blah. then i helped to do the feminism aspect of the pill as well:) all these led to me sleeping at 2++. ah wellz:) at least i got to know jac better:) pat fell asleep on that night...hahaha:D
friday morning in school...people were doing their pw throughout the entire day. it was like..chinese lesson consisted of people who will usually pon the class:D *grInz* people who have always attended classes were not seen at all! hahaha:)
saw michelle (goh) in school! she's leaving for norway this sunday.. so fast.. ah wellz:) guess we'll miss her:) all her pranks and cheekiness and what-nots:) she's like...one of the only three pple who have been with me in the same class for all four years:) ah wellz.
ponned last maths lect in the day to go to bk with lydia and corinne...hahaha i know it's quite bad but i've attended almost every tutorial and lecture that everyone else ponned. so yupz. and the opportunity cost to study for promos' chem prac instead is quite low... had an amused time at bk... btw, i've already clarified everything. now corinne won't be so xin1 tong4 over him. hahahaha:D
then met nina for dinner:D had a nice time talking to her after not seeing her for like an eternity. though i must admit, me being kinda broke hampered our progress in the buying dinner aspect. hehee:) i'll save up for the next time!:D
oh no. i feel terribly sleepy. going to sleep. can hear clover biting the door (!) hah.